Same here. I first played it in 2019 and was immediately terrified of the enemy machines. Since I'm the kind of person who doesn't enjoy being stressed out for fun in any context, I pretty quickly bounced off of it. I also eventually realized that I saw death/game over in video games as irredeemable failure, and I'm working on being more accepting of trial and error (in video games and elsewhere in my life). I returned to it in early 2022, tried different strategies when I died, and realized that I loved the game. Zero Dawn, Forbidden West, and their DLCs are now among the very few games I have 100 percented.
I would probably include an apology for using FAT32 and insist that we've made better filesystems since then.