For me I have the urge to stand up but I can't bring myself to on many occasions and beat myself up about for too long.
It's gotten easier to stand up about things since I started taking meds.
In fact thinking back on it since I started my meds I've stood up almost every time.
Honestly life has gotten so much easier and better since then it's kinda crazy.
I wish I had gotten around to scheduling the appointment sooner.
Did Russia not invade Ukraine's sovereign territory?
That's a pretty big rock you've been living under to miss that.
Picture an 4 way intersection.
For me every single car just went about their way all willy nilly like it was nothing.
Occasionally a semi hauling triple trailers flys through grinding every else to a halt when everyone is trying to get through.
There's no order, the lights don't work, and almost no one wants to yield.
The cars were ideas, things I saw, and things I needed to do. The semi is my latest hyper obsession. The non functional traffic lights were my ability to regulate my thoughts.
When I took my meds it was like the lights started working suddenly. At first they were really strict, one car at a time like a highway on ramp. But then things amped down a bit as I got more used to the meds. I even went up to 60mg atomoxetine from 40mg where I started as things ramped too close to chaos again.
I hope that made sense.
Honestly I think you might be right
Since I've started my meds and some behavior changes along with them I have only been late 3 times, all traffic related. And I still managed to get stuff done those days.
Those first few weeks though were pretty damn stressful as I was suddenly finding I could manage my time.
Before getting diagnosed, the running joke was that I'd be late for my own funeral. I even joked with my family that in the event I did pass to have whoever brought my ashes to the BBQ to show up fashionably late in my honor as one last joke.
Bit of a silly question:
I got quite the overkill server‡ for free‡‡ a little while ago and I've been struggling to find stuff to do with it
What kind of stuff do you self host?
Basically all I've got currently is TrueNAS Scale running on mine and it feels like a bit of a waste just running that.
‡ My server is from 2012 but it's got dual hexacore Xeons (can't recall exact model), 192GB of RAM, and about 40 TB of storage in Raid-Z2. The storage came from my old crusty NAS, I didn't get that for free.
‡‡ Well mostly free, I was told I could have it if I got it out of they're garage which took about 2 days.
I had to log out of all my accounts and then clear the app storage to be able to log back in to my accounts.
Basically what happened is that the hacked instances rotated their master keys and Jerboa didn't know how to handle it.
I'll never forget my first trip to Voat, literally Nazi shit on the front page with a shitton of votes.
Never went back.
Happy it's gone.
My mind is with my 10mm sockets
Somewhere between Mars and the Sun, probably.
First video game?
DOOM on my grandparents PC
It has to be ran with a smaller image to play but I loved it.
When DOOM 2 hit it was amazing
Surprisingly not so much... Mostly.
For me at least the hunger thing has a known origin, I had so much food scarcity as a kid and into my mid 20s that hunger is more of a suggestion than something that dominates my mind.
Hell it took years before it was more than just the occasional blip of "you should probably eat" that would quickly pass.
Now if I found a new hyper obsession, then I might forget to breathe (not a joke).
I'm having the same issue, were you able to get it to work?
I've already tried logging out of all of my accounts and clearing it's app data, I'm at a loss really.
Edit: Now it seems to be working, not sure what's changed but I don't mind.
It's kind of hard to describe really
It's like you're lost in the movements, you're caught in the flow, the strain is no longer a struggle, you just flow, you move and it moves.
Your reps go on, your sets flow together, the down time ceases being a factor, you're there.
The presence of mind and body, you are there, you are now, you move.
Numbers mean nothing but you know when the reps are done, the exercises flow together.
Someone could call your name and you wouldn't know it as it's not in your mind.
There's only the movement, there's only the flow.
There is no you, there is no weights, there is no other, there is only movement and flow.
And when it's over you know it, yet feel like you could go a second time through the whole affair. And sometimes I do and then I feel Godly for the whole day and sometimes the next.
And the sleep quality that night is beyond description.
I've hit that state many times doing calisthenics (my typical workout), when out biking, and when out hiking. It's always the same really.
Hour long calisthenics routine? What's a second hour really?
20 mile bike ride? I could go another round, why not snag some dinner from that food cart I got lunch at?
15 mile hike? Well tonight's going to be even better with all the stars, what's a second trip around the mountain?
You don't get there immediately, you won't get there every time, but when you do it's bliss.
Surprisingly no
It idles at about 150w
Ukraine good Russia bad?
Sorry I don't side with imperialism.
Ukraine wants to not be invaded by it's neighbor, and Russia did so to conquer it in direct contradiction to a treaty it signed when Ukraine gave it's nukes to Russia after the fall of the Soviet Union. On multiple occasions.
I'm primarily on my Blahaj account but I'm currently using one of my alts as Jerboa is crashing when I try to log into my Beehaw account (which requires me to clear the app storage to switch accounts) and Blahaj is currently having server issues again.
Personally I dig the vibes of the Blahaj folks
Mostly I sub to communities all over the fediverse, though this alt is a bit more bare as I mostly keep them separated in terms of where I interact.
3D models to print
I think I've only printed at most a third of them, but I always end up buying too many for my DnD group
The only way leftist will win any political ground is by winning allies
Screaming down every person who you have a disagreement with politically will only solidify their dislike for the people you claim to represent
It's funny to me seeing you claim that the other people lack awareness and empathy when you seemingly fail to grasp that people don't enjoy the way you are portraying your political views