As your standard middle aged SWM I wish you the best and don't give up. I know you might be worried about people judging you for whatever reason, but to others you are an inspiration. You might not realize, but you are making the world a better place. If everyone had the courage to try and pursue the things that make them happy or make them feel whole we would live in a much better world. Don't be discouraged, just keep loving yourself and be who you are.
Trump isn't even down. Here's still by far the favorite to win the Republican primary and be in the presidential race. Despite all of these things he continues to have a rabid following that will easily say all of this is just a setup. Cult 45 isn't just a moniker, they truly are very cult-like.