Been pretty rough. Lucky to have made it this far I guess. I know a lot who've had it worse.
But yeah it's been interesting to witness other people be able to weather the same things that put me on the street simply because they had a support group to lean on. I'm not bitter anymore, it's just a testament to how important that is. We just have much less of a barrier, if any, between us and homelessness, and the state violence that comes along with it.
I'm only now sort of stable due to undeserved kindness from people who barely know me. Intersections of privilege made a difference too I'm sure. Definitely nothing to do with any merit or personal strength.
Moving countries with a language barrier sounds incredibly difficult. Being a statesian that's not something I've had to deal with. Hope things go well for you!
Tankie is an empty signifier
That is to say, it's a label that can be used to describe an array of different and conflicting ideas, values, and identities. Because of this it serves as an obfuscatory device rather than a communicative one. The sub-logic becomes tankie = bad, so if someone I don't like = tankie, then person I don't like = bad.
Almost none of us were alive when Khrushchev rolled tanks into Hungary. Most MLs aren't particularly fond of Khrushchev.
It's made a resurgence in this new, weird context because most of the terms used during the previous red scares lost their power through similar misuse. It's become unfashionable to hate on leftism in progressive spaces, doing so using old terminology makes you sound like a fox news conservative. But you can do the same thing by calling it this instead.