It's so frustrating, I worked with a group that had their own community broadband council just to get broadband more wide spread in their county.
Those grants are ridiculous and on objection from another fed department about their grants creating a conflict or another coop claiming they are already offering can derail a whole application. Applications that are not easy or cheap to produce either.
Makes me sick to my stomach
It's funny you say this because games I know I would love years ago, still appeal to me I.e. Baldurs gate but now I am very much a collect and compete kind of gamer.... It's weird I used to love in depth stories but now a days tetris, doom, card games. It's weird.