Well, I mean, you're part of us now. You're part of the ridiculously attractive girls club :3

I totally get you tho. I was at a local pride parade 2 months ago and I was literally completely overwhelmed by the amount of people that gave me a "OMG I NEEEED TO GO TO THEM AND HUG THEM" feeling (even if I didn't do it because shyyy). I was literally melting

🫂

I honestly have a very bad experience with IPLs. I used one for several months once a week and, not only did mine break after 3 months, it also wasn't really noticeable that anything happened.

No, actually that was a lie. I did notice that, the space that was usually occupied with one hair now occasionally had a second (very thin) hair growing right next to it. It made me effectively have more body hair.

I'm sure that it would have worked better if I kept it up for half a year more or so, but there where 2 more factors that made my stop using it:

• the IPL impulses hurt my eyes even it had good skin contact
• doing one session takes fucking for ever

So in conclusion: save your money and save your time (imo)

Edit to clarify: I mainly used it on my legs, I notices absolutely nothing on my face either though

Thank you <3 I'll bring it up in my next therapy session. Probably a good idea

Probably the most affirming expriance I've had was when a new neighbor moved into our small apartment building and we got into a little bit of a chat. Some when in she asked me "oh, you're -neighbor with female name-, right?" I was, in fact, not that neighbor. What makes it specifically special was that I haven't done much as in voice training and my voice usually gives away that I'm born male. I still try to sound as androgynous as I can but it's reeaallyy hard.

Since that story is quite boring, here are 3 other affirming stories:

At an anime convention, I went into the men's bathroom to wash my hands and apply more black lipstick. Back then (and even now), the ladies bathroom almost sounds like sin to go into for me (thank you dad). To appear more fem, I wearing a very short skirt and a crop-top. It worked so well actually that some guy opened the bathroom door, saw me, IMMEDIATELY apologized and walked back out. He did come in again after looking at the bathroom sign and asked but ya. It felt so good finally not fitting in a space I was forced into for my entire life so far.

A second public bathroom story ٩(•ᴗ•)۶. I was in Cologne (Germany) for a day because of a small event in the Bootshaus. On our way there, me and a friend of mine had to go to the bathroom, so we decided to go at the bathroom of the train station Köln messe/deutz (we went separately and guarded our baggage and stuff). In any case, I walked in and someone instantly saw me and told me to get the fuck over to the ladies bathroom. The scared little bitch that I am, I just put on my male voice and said that I sadly had to go here... He left me alone after that but still very funny and affirming.

And finally, a non-bathroom related story. Literally 3 days ago, coming home from a Pride parade, a train ticked guy asked me for my ticket. Since I've just been on a pride parade, I was dressed quite fem and slutty. Anyways, I gave him my ticket and ID. THE FACE OF THAT POOR GUY AS HE GOT VISABLY CONFUSED WHEN SEEIBG MY NAME AND OLD PIC. It was amazing. Nothing really happened and h didn't question it and just left me to my ways.

What makes all of this even more euphoric of me tho is the fact that I'm not on HRT yet. I do have strangely high natural estro level which might have made me grow up quite a bit fem too. I guess I'm kinda blessed with the f1nnster gen, where I can look both quite masc and quite fem c:

It does make a lot of sense that I need more energy...

Do you have any recommendations for not too unhealthy snacks? I'd go with cereal bars but they actually are quite sugary/unhealthy and hella expensive :/

Holy shit, how didn't I know this exists? This is an amazing recourse. Thank you so much for this

Did you talk to your doctor about it not doing anything? It might very well because you're getting too low if a dosage. (DON'T INCREASE WITHOUT SUPERVISION THO!!)

I can't really judge if it's actually doing nothing or if you just can't see the change since it's a very slow and gradual process.

I should really get it out of my mind that I won't allow myself to be above 60kg. But I'm so glad that I'm not alone in this feeling <3

Why not make something like "TransFemVoice@lemmy.blahaj.zone"?

Have you always been injecting it? Maybe our body just doesn't work with it...

I'm not a medical professional but I could see a case where your body processes your injected estrogen too quickly leading to big and constant hormone fluctuations. Don't really know too much about what that would do to your body but it would make sense for your psyche to suffer a lot from it.

Edit: if you don't want to / can't get pills, you could try doing 1/4 your current dosage every other day and see how that turns out (if it's even possible with your type if syringe (DON'T REUSE THEM!!))

Thank you so much. She's right, i gotta talk to my therapist about it... I'm probably overly scared about this anyways because he did tell me (multiple times) that I will get that write-off from him 100%.

Knowing that I'm not alone in this struggle is an immense amount of help, thank you. I think I'll take a screenshot of this comment and take a look at it whenever that feeling comes back. <3

Thank you so much for the recommendation! Sad that there's nothing in person here tho, guess I have to put up with the shipping struggle...

I'm luckily in a position to not need to resort to Point of Pride - I'd rather have it go to someone who really needs the support.

That's very reassuring, thank you <3

Oh my hod, so cute and so much envy...

Btw is that a dog collar I see around your neck?

The Braun Silk-expert pro 5, probably the most expensive and best reviewed IPL device out there

I'm not much of a relationship person but having your close ones just vanish must hurt a ton. Especially at a time like this...

When the feelings get too much, (at least for me it helps if you) take your Blåhaj and imagine they're a human, like a close friend or family. >!or imagine me, even if you have no clue how I look like. After all, the Blåhaj connects us all!<

Yeah I know but it seems to be a lot more complicated than that

Oh, I actually might have something useful to say about all of this c:

I'm actually in a quite similar position as (I think) you are. I'm just gonna say the magic word right out of the gate: Agender ✨

I don't really know what it means to "be a certain gender" but presenting more femme makes me happier. I generally think that gender differentiations shouldn't be a thing because it makes absolutely no sense for me.

I don't fit into any gender stereotype and neither do I wanr to but when it comes down to it, being male makes me too disphoric for me to not take HRT

Oh my god. The first actual quick and cheap recipe I read on the internet. Instantly added to my cookbook, tysm!

Oh that'd an amazing idea too. Nuts fill your stomach nicely too

I'm glad I'm not alone in this. Thank you for the link, I'll give it a read once I've got a little more time.

I have been through quite the number of therapists too, so I know that there's everything from amazing therapists to wondering how they even got to be one. I'm actually quite happy with the one I'm currently with but I'll have to find a new one very soon for different reasons.

What about patches or gels? From what i've heard, patches seem to be pretty reliable

I'm luckily at a therapist that specializes in LGBT topics so I hope that my concerns are for nothing anyways. Oh how I wish I could just turn off attraction.

AGP (autogynophilia) is a debunked pseudo-scientific theory. I see that it still exists in your doubts.

What's even scarier is that I didn't even know that this was an official thing. So the existence of this was in my head without knowing what it was. Scary shit... Thank you for telling me this.

I'm not super stressed about finding out my sexuality anyways. I seriously have bigger fish to fry for the time being.

Have you tried possible affirmations, like a preferred name, pronouns, clothes? How did you feel?

I've tried a lot of things, actually. I mostly go by my chosen name (which feels kinda good), my chosen pronouns (which doesn't feel bad but it's kinda weird) and wearing affirming clothes feels fucking awesome.

a trans woman who is scared to do something or learn something that invalidates her.

I hate to say this but this is uncomfortably accurate...

Thank you tho c:

I'll be honest and say that I know next to nothing about workout thingies. But my brother does. He once told me something that I think could have a lot of truth in it:

Workout is for building muscle. Losing weight is something you do in the kitchen.

I really don't want to encourage you to starve yourself tho. The best advice that I am able to give you is to maybe get into calorie counting.

Also, there is nothing wrong with being a little more on the bulky side. I've got several afab friends that are a little bigger and they still look amazing.

Don't apologize for this, it was super interesting to read. Thank you for the insight, we're all nerds here I feel like.

Yeah thank you, I actually didn't know that it had an actual word

Where did you get it from, puppy? I totally don't want one myself because my current chocker that you theoretically could attach a leash or chain to breaks when you put pressure on it... Or so I'm told...

Also I'm far too awkward to go to my local pet store and try on a dog collar to see if it fits.

And of course I'm gonna call a cutie cute, you cutie >w<

I actually wanted to try an epilator too but I'm pretty scared... I've got 4 massive surgery scars on one of my legs and I'm scared that I'll somehow fuck something up (surgery was like 7 years ago but the scars don't go away)

And waxing makes me get more razor burns than a razor funnily enough

If you still wanna get into it the rule of thumb is: The lighter your skin and the darker your hair, the better

Oh carrots are an amazing idea I just thought of! But thank you for the ideas c:

I mean, I am very new on here and the only related subreddit I am on is r/blahaj (and nothing stood out to me in OneTopic's videos so far). In any case, I'm very glad that I'm not alone in this.

Ok, thank you for the recommendation

I'd be a little concerned about it being quite uncomfortable since bikinis usually are a different material, but it might be worth a try. Thanks

Oh that explains why I hate to cut a pill into 4 that only has one breaking line

Hmm, I'm using pills but I don't think that the ROA would have such a big impact...

Who knows tho, I'm not a medical professional

but I don’t think you should ever believe anybody who tells you something about that. Only you know what you want!

Yea, I believe so too, which is exactly why I'm asking this. I want to get as many perspectives from people to compare with my own feelings.

I sadly don't feel like I'm able to take breaks because some appointments are connected to other psychological stuff that I NEED to deal with as soon as possible. But generally speaking, you're right... Transitioning isn't a sprint.