Sunspot

I left my teens a long time ago, but I'm still constantly asked how high school is going for me. There is plenty of risk for an adult with this. Some of us just look like kids forever. 😬

I work an outdoor job in another hot state. We typically take a water and shade break every forty-five minutes or so for about fifteen minutes. Not having those breaks, especially when we're in head to toe PPE, would kill most of us and we're used to it.

I was using Sync for years and years. This month, I deleted all my Reddit accounts. That was a well polished app and I'll definitely miss it, but I'm not really missing Reddit itself.

I was thinking about something similar yesterday. On Reddit, I was part of a number of religious trauma/ex-Christian groups. I was always uncomfortable posting in a place like Reddit, but reading others' posts was greatly comforting to me.

I'm not sure how similar CPTSD and religious trauma are, but I'd be interested in a community like you mentioned to learn more about it.

Back when I was Christian, I hated what I was. I spent my youth "praying the gay away" and all that. As a result, I suffered from depression and anxiety pretty much straight out of the womb.

Then I came out, was ostracized by my Christian family, and everything I was afraid of happening happened.

But you know what? I ended up finding a new family who loves and supported who I am. I married a wonderful woman who loves me in all my trans masc non-binary, bisexual confusion.

I realized that what I hated wasn't my being queer, what I hated was that my family would never love me unconditionally. Now I love who I am and I honestly feel happier than I ever did performing the cis straight dance.

I'm embarrassed to admit how long it took me to find the search function in Jerboa. I almost never click the communities list tab so I never noticed it had the search.

I've only been here for a day, but the lack of homophobia and transphobia here compared to Reddit has been a breath of fresh air. I'm not afraid of posting here like I was on Reddit, where I'd actually have to debate with myself for a minute or two before posting. It's like finally leaving a bad relationship; now I'm starting to see how bad that all was for my mental health.