I’ve found that stress and grief cause me to be somewhat self destructive so that isn’t surprising to me. Take care of yourself. Although you’ll carry your mom’s death forever, the pain will get better and the joyful memories that you have will get their color back. Hang in there. We’re all rooting for you!
He's going to run from jail on the hope he can pardon himself. Guaranteed. (If he even sees jail, which he likely won't because of the requirement for SS protection)