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People don't want to watch reruns

The article isn't terribly long, but here is the direct link to Taters https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvJtVOmFs5Q

I've been working on this lately, what I find helpful is reminding myself that the chore doesn't have to be done perfectly, and that some progress is better than no progress. I struggle with perfectionism and will put off tasks indefinitely because of fear that if I start wrong or don't finish it immediately it won't be perfect. My therapist helped me to realize that perfect is the enemy of done, and that it is ok if something isn't done perfectly.

Lots of good technical starting points here. I don't want to prematurely discourage you, but before you get into any code, evaluate your problem solving abilities. If that is an area you struggle in, work on that first, or at least in conjunction with programming basics.

I've worked with engineers who have all the code skills, but when faced with a complex issue, struggled to break it down into it's simplest components and wound up with a messy, over-engineered solution.

Echoing what others have said, get the meds. I'm 39 and have been taking Vyvanse for a couple years; when I forget I am a mess, I can't believe I made it this far without.

I live near enough to TMI that a catastrophic event would be severely detrimental to my health, but I see this as a good thing (if you can call AI good). Clean, safe energy, and jobs for people in an area that needs jobs, win-win.

I had a similar experience growing up, it sucks. It has ruined my ability to interact with and form relationships with other men.

As a father myself, I am striving to create moments like you witnessed, I refuse to let my children suffer the way I/we have.

My social anxiety would love to give a one word answer and move on, my ADHD/self-doubt/trauma says "are you sure that's enough? they'll think you are an idiot and don't know what you're doing if you don't elaborate"

I prefer brown noise, it feels less harsh to me.

Edit: should have read the article before commenting, the author includes brown noise.

For me, it depends on how much time I have before starting. If the start is immediate, "I'll figure this out on the fly" then ride that "oh, shit I don't know what I'm doing" adrenaline fueled dopamine wave all the way to borderline success. If I have lots of time before starting I'll over analyze then try and fail to become an expert and give up before starting.

I feel this in my bones.

The bulk of my day to day work is with a legacy application written in vb.net, and I couldn't agree more with your first paragraph.