katve

This instance is blahaj.zone, hosted by the folks at blahaj.zone?

I used to think I'm not trans enough, that the thoughts I might've had were just about my gender expression, that I'd be alright with being a femboy, that I wouldn't ever feel a desire to change parts of my body.

But once I got to it, I just couldn't help but browse the trans and egg memes, read the stories, see the pictures. Not all, but many of them felt relatable to me.

But I guess how the veil of "I just want to be a feminine guy" came down was thinking of if I wanted everyone to think of me as a man for the rest of eternity. I felt the pressures of toxic masculinity already trying to punish me through being labeled as "gay".

Once I realized I didn't want to be a guy, I just had to figure out where to go from there. I was already transgender at that point. All the validation of "real trans people" which I hadn't previously thought of as applying to me was all the sudden empowering. I couldn't really believe it at first, how unlike would it be that I would be trans. But I guess someone has to play that part. And since I am trans, I can nudge or redefine my identity anywhere I feel like...

Throughout all of these, journaling really helped. Writing down daily thoughts, often about gender, did help me see the thought patterns.

I now feel like there is no me without being transgender. I don't wish to be normal. If you take away my transness, you take away a core part of me.

That's why I am now slowly planning to transition.

I don't want people to see me without a core part of me being there.

I use Mull which is hardened for privacy. All Fennec derivatives support custom addons and setting the collection yourself is possible.

I see only OP calling for defedding instances that don't defed Meta. Fedipact https://fedipact.online/ makes no mention, never seen it on Mastodon. I think the flamewar should be toned down a little.

I'd wager a fake vote count would be much easier to detect than the same amount of fake users

I've had multiple conversations about liberalism and come to realize there's a multitude of definitions none of which make complete sense. A left-wing definition might be "liberal democratic capitalism" like most of Europe is, with neoliberal being a more right-wing version of that like the US. A right-winger might use liberal to mean someone culturally progressive. Sometimes liberal is used to mean someone who wants a smaller government, sometimes it is confused with libertarianism (which was originally left-wing but co-opted by free market capitalists).

I don't think the term "liberal" is useful anymore, it's mostly thrown around towards people you perceive to be the status quo.