onoira [they/them]

I was diagnosed with anorexia because I was 5 kg 'underweight' and answered 'no' when asked if I had an eating disorder. Answering 'no' was apparently the justification for the diagnosis. It's still on my file 10 years later, despite now being 'over-weight' and always having had nominal blood test results. Conveniently, denying you have anorexia is a symptom, and so is asking to have the diagnosis removed, I guess.

This has completely blocked me from receiving medication and treatment, because any physical or pyschological ailment I seek help for gets blamed on 'my anorexia' and I'm referred to psychotherapy.

I would recommend getting a personal device. Using employer-owned devices for private use is a liability to both yourself and your employer, and it's exposing yourself to serious breaches by your employer.

… there's forms you can fill out yourself? Late 20s, i was sent a 40 page workbook and told to give it to my parents. My parents were dead (and they would've never helped me anyway), so I was rejected before i'd even seen a doctor.

A nurse suggested getting an old teacher to fill it out. They're all dead or retired. On the opposite side of the planet. And they speak a different language. And they wouldn't recognise me or my name. Every single one of them would invariably describe me as violent and lazy, just like my parents did. but apparently i need a neurotypical to vouch for my disability in person, and this neurotypical has to be someone who had power over me as a child. Countless referrals from other psychologists do not count. Partners and friends I've known for decades also do not count, and they matter even less if they are also neurodivergent.

They're primarily checking for proof that you're taking the medication.

• If levels are too low: they assume you're not using it, and if you're not using it you must be selling it.
• Levels too high: you're abusing it.
• Levels of something else (usually alcohol or cannabis): you're a junkie.

All three can get your prescription revoked, and the testing requirements change based on the weather and what your doctor had for breakfast last Tuesday.