I don't know if it might be due to ADHD (or something related) since I'm still waiting to get tested but I feel the same.
The moment I notice I'm not good/best among my peers at something I don't want to touch it even again.
On the other hand this might be just me acting like a five year old I don't known. I just related hard.
I cycle a lot around my city and no cap I believe that they fucking gift driver licenses in cereal boxes nowadays.
I cannot begin to describe the enormous stupidity one can found on the road.
(And not only drivers, electric scooters are almost worse. At least when I have an accident with them they are the ones who take the worst part).