I am shit at planning, but I hate being unprepared all the same
So naturally, even though I still need more time to figure it all out, and I'm by far not sure enough that I actually want it, my mind started drifting towards hrt.
The implications it might have, what that would mean for my body and so on. I came to the annoyingly unsatisfying conclusion that I'm uncomfortable with what might happen, uh... down there.
To clear my mind, I searxed for tshirt + skirt outfits, and realized the shirt I was wearing is large enough to be tied up. So I did that and there I am, wearing a cropped-looking tshirt and being annoyed that 80% of my bodyfat sits on my belly.
I shrugged, with that look of a parent who knows damn well what their kid is trying to do won't work, and stood in front of the mirror.
Critically examining my tshirt, I came to the obvious conclusion that there's enough loose fabric to house more. So I gently pulled said fabric away from my chest, and for a split second, it looked like I had boobs.
It took me a few seconds to realize that I had the biggest smile on my face.
But, do I want actual, home-grown boobs with everything that comes with it? Or do I just want to look like I have boobs?
Maybe we'll find out on the next episode of Nathalie explores her body
Wait no, that sounds wrong
I haven't started HRT but the few accounts I've read from those who have it seems like a ymmv kind of thing. Regardless of how the 'performance impact' hits you personally everything I've read (admittedly not a lot) indicates that it doesn't become completely unusable but will (might?) require more work than before.
I need to do more research on it, I think. I'm only ever truly comfortable with a certain thing if I know absolutely everything there is to know about said thing.
Having the outcome of something be unclear and variable stresses me out, I'm not gonna lie. Doesn't matter what it is.
That being said, imagining all the other effects of hrt make me love what I see in my imaginary mirror
Can confirm that. Morning wood goes away, so atrophy can be an issue if you never engage those muscles. Otherwise functions well enough, apart from sperm production obv