we're so back (but i will be making a separate post for my circumstances)
I won a bid on a house, finally WON a bid, and signed the paperwork and house went into pending.
But then because the seller realtor made a "mistake" and they managed to get another bid before we could get attorney approval letters filled out. So suddenly another offer came through and the seller realtor had a responsibility "in the interest of fairness" to present this offer even though contracts were already signed. In the interest of fairness they gave us the opportunity to outbid this offer, but of course they wouldnt tell us what that offer was to get an opportunity to potentially match it or just give up.
And in 3 fun days I got the ups and downs of anticipation of getting an answer, the emotional high of finally winning a bid and getting a house, the hype from planning inspection dates and imaging where I can go from house and how I can make it my own, the excitement and joy in telling the people, then the dread of not knowing if I'll be able to keep the house, and finally the anger and sadness from having this fucking shark take my house away right out of my hands.
I'm staying positive I know we'll find something, but this market is killing me.
even though contracts were already signed
I don’t know what jurisdiction you’re in, and even though I’m a lawyer, I’m not your lawyer, and this isn’t legal advice, and I have never seen your contract,
buuut…
I would get some legal advice from a real estate or professional negligence lawyer in your jurisdiction if I were you. That situation has the stink of contract breach / negligent realtor all over it.
Technically we still have a few days signing to get the attorney approval or rejection letter sent out. All theyre doing is having their attorney issue the rejection letter. So there really isnt much we can do on our end.
We could try and force them to honor to contract or at least get some compensation for the shady dealings, but it wouldnt be worth the cost or energy, especially when it's unlikely to yield any fruit.
All I can do is hope karma gets them, and that the same kind of shady buyer that does stuff like this is going to be a predator when it comes to negotiating after inspection is done. "based on insert typical stuff I think Im going to have to drop my offer to 10k under asking price".
I will keep an eye on this deal to see how things roll, and I will try to resist the urge to egg the house on the regular.
House buying is the absolute worst. I hate it so much…
You have to decide so much, on so little information and time. Hell you can spend longer researching a cheap kitchen appliance than a house.
Even when it’s all sorted it’s not really… not until you finally have the keys.
The only way I could be stay sane was shifting my way of thinking… eventually you will find your home and before long you’ll be making memories in it and will absolutely love your house. Every house you missed on was really a good thing in the end as it will lead you to that one house, your proper home.
Oh yeah, Im staying positive. I liked the area the house was in, and I think the house itself had a lot to offer, but it wasnt special and there are other houses. I'll find something better in the meantime though I deeply dislike having to get back into the grind.
Pretty awful. Work sucks and I had to put my cat down on Friday. She was my best friend. I was okay over the weekend but I am increasingly lonely and heartachey.
Grief comes in waves and you can never predict when one will hit. I lost my cat of 15 years a couple months ago and I still swear I hear his meow sometimes
I'm sorry for your loss. it will get easier, but i'm sure it doesn't feel like that right now
I lost my kitty last year. Was very close to her as well. I don't believe in ghosts but I think her ghost visited me in a dream shortly after she died. I'll miss her forever.
Very weird. I keep doing things and not being quite sure who's doing them. Having trouble not feeling super alone and isolated but also having trouble feeling like I'm me so it's kinda better in a weird way? Very strange. ... Kinda just wanted to tell somecritter about that, I guess 🤷♀
I hope it's okay if I pretend to bee a beehawer for a sec <.< I figure I kinda am in spirit, so maybe it's okay? Though lately Idunno if I'm me so who knows. wobbles awkwardly
Thank you for sharing. I don't have any special pearls of wisdom, except to say that I see you, you are not alone.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here. I'm sure the same is true for many folks on this big, federated universe.
And if you don't have someone to talk to in your world offline, there are plenty of resources for folks who would be happy to listen if you care to share more.
Hang in there!
Haven't posted on Lemmy before. Excited to be in a small queer community.
This week: made some fun art with my partner, organized back if house at a nonprofit, had great coffee, and enjoyed nature
Aww sounds like my dream life!
we're excited to have you here! have an awesome week!
Ready to jump off of a fucking cliff.
Last week, Roommate loses extraordinary amount of money to a scammer. We ended up behind on rent and were served an eviction notice. Dealing with a rent bank now.
Last week is also my 31st birthday and I end up having a gout flare up. Because you know. That's fun. I usually have to walk with a cane because of a worthless knee but now I get to add a worthless foot on the other leg so yay.
Couldn't afford food or medication or really anything. Not as much of a problem at the moment but the stress still exists and having to plan for next month when the same situation is likely going to happen.
This morning I got off the toilet and put pressure on the wrong part of my foot. Instant agony and I shift balance to the other foot but it's not in a position to support my weight. Grab for something to steady myself and all I grab is the toilet seat which gets part of it ripped off of the toilet. So now I have to buy a fucking toilet seat as well. I am hobbling right now. It takes me 30 seconds to move to the bathroom which is next door to my bedroom. Normally that's like... 3 seconds. So god knows when i'll be able to go out and get a toilet seat. So that's gonna end up with me positioned weirdly for the next week until this dies down.
New chest pain that is not fun and god knows what the fuck is happening there but I can't see a doctor about it anytime soon. It's not 911 level of emergency. It's more of a nagging thing that comes and goes and feels muscular but still.
What is scary is heart has been doing a thing. Beating it's own samba every now and again.
I wrote myself into a corner with my DnD campaign and now I don't know what the fuck to do. We have a session tonight which will be finishing up a oneshot from before but still. I don't know what i'm gonna do and I can't think straight.
I've heard that consuming citrus (ideally lime-aide because it's more acidic) can help dissolve the crystals that causes gout to be so painful.
I hope that helps, friend.
Unfortunately I cannot afford it or leave the house to even buy it in the first place. Walking is essentially out. It feels like my foot is going to pop it's so swollen.
I'm not sure what to say. This is what Dr. GPT says:
"If you don't have access to a doctor due to financial constraints, there are still some steps you can take to manage gout:
Dietary Changes: Modify your diet to include foods that are low in purines, as high purine intake can contribute to gout. Avoid or limit organ meats, shellfish, and alcohol. Consume plenty of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and lean proteins.
Hydration: Staying hydrated helps to flush out excess uric acid from your body. Drink plenty of water throughout the day.
Weight Management: Maintaining a healthy weight can reduce the risk of gout flare-ups. Losing weight if you're overweight can help manage gout symptoms.
Home Remedies: Some natural remedies like cherry juice, ginger, and turmeric have been suggested to have anti-inflammatory properties that might offer relief. However, their effectiveness varies among individuals.
Over-the-Counter Medications: Non-prescription pain relievers like ibuprofen or naproxen may help alleviate pain and inflammation. Always follow the recommended dosages and consult the package instructions.
Lifestyle Changes: Avoid alcohol and limit consumption of sugary beverages, as they can exacerbate gout symptoms.
Rest and Elevation: Resting the affected joint and elevating it can help reduce pain and swelling during a gout flare-up.
Remember, while these steps might provide some relief, they are not a substitute for professional medical advice. If your symptoms worsen or become unbearable, it's important to find a way to consult a healthcare professional, even if it means seeking out free or low-cost clinics, community health centers, or government health services in your area."
Maybe there are some low cost clinics in town.
Be careful with ChatGPT. It sometimes gives medical advice that is harmful.
This is true. Trust but verify.
Watching the drama unfold on lemmy.world and all the freeze peach warriors going ape shit over there has me grateful for this little corner.
It's like watching the history of internet filesharing and warez from the 90s on a speedrun. LW happened to be the most populous instance by chance, and the nature of federated network means the admins can get legally held liable for contents they didn't choose nor wanted to host, because all it takes is another federated server going rogue.
Sure, freedom of speech is fundamental. But it's a hard place between "saving yourself from financial and legal troubles" and "betraying the (vaguely defined) principles". When the crowd is shouting "freedom of speech", they don't just want a nice speech for an announcement; they want the admins become a martyr for the cause. And shit, what for? For some vague internet fame?
Had lemmy.ml become the largest instance, we would have potentially watched this unfold on lemmy devs themselves. Knowing their political affiliations, it might have turned into a different scenario. Legal threats might have been rebutted in an open way that even pleased the "freeze peach" crowd despite the "tankie" accusations. Perhaps all the extra pressure and legal threats meant Lemmy development come to a halt and slowly decline. But no one knows, really.
I don't condone nor condemn LW or its staff. I wish they didn't have to carry the baggage of becoming the guinea pig of this ongoing experiment.
I think people also for some reason think they are entitled to free speech, a.k.a. they can do whatever they want, and virtually any space they please. All it tells me is they lack a fundamental grasp of what the first amendment actually is and what it guarantees. I think they also forget the Internet operates outside of the US. 
I agree however I'd like to add that I do see piracy as being, at least partially, a social movement. Perhaps it isn't apparent to everyone, or right now, and maybe it'll never become anything, but still we should respect that there are different points of view on topics such as copyright. So I understand when people call it censoring when they have that point of view.
I just think vague gestures (not your doing) to someone’s personal interpretation of what free-speech is, which is generally “I should suffer no consequences for anything I say or do,“ hits a wall when it comes to asking somebody to host conversations and possible links to pirated content on their own servers. Especially when they are doing it on their own dime as a hobby and don’t have a legal team to protect them from the feds.
Yap it's really up to the host to decide I think. And also there's a huge difference between talking about piracy and actively sharing links.
Yeah I just can’t imagine running an instance. Minimum hundred dollars a month so I can constantly police content just to make sure people aren’t sharing CP or pirated content or otherwise illegal content all on my storage.
That's quite a lot of money. Then you'd have enough users to recruit some moderators.
care to explain that one? I haven't done much venturing in lemmy outside of our instance here, curious what the drama is?
They banned some piracy communities citing they don't want to be liable (seems reasonable to me but not sure how much merit there is there). Now people are screaming "censorship."
big yikes. i mean i'm no stranger to piracy communities but like...couldn't they just take the respective communities and spin up their own lemmy server somewhere else where the lemmy.world admins have no power? isn't that the point of this whole fediverse thing?
Having the communities removed does not prevent them from starting their own instance. They weren't even being hosted on Lemmy.world to begin with, so nothing has changed for them other than unmitigated posting/presence on world's instance. Any user who wants to participate in those communities still can. Nothing is stopping them.
lol so these are just the worst kind of losers? man. i'm with you, i am grateful for our lil community over here.
I just think there is so much drama happening because people don't understand the fediverse yet combined with this incessant need to catch "power tripping mods" on forums. Because something sounds bad and some alt-right troll rolls in stirring the pot, people suddenly start crying "FREE SPEECH!" when the content they want to see and comment on is just one keyboard stroke away.
Pardon my ignorance… lemmy.world?
So right now you are on a specific instance of lemmy or Kbin or whatever your preferred fediverse system is. Lemmy.world is an instance. Beehaw.org is a lemmy instance. Users can create accounts on both and can browse the content of the other instances, unless the instance they are on (let’s say 1) defederates from the other (2). Then you cant browse the other instance(2) from within the one (1) that chose to defederate. The content from 2 doesn’t appear anymore on 1. But there’s nothing stopping you from browsing either.
My nesting partner played outside lands on Sunday and I've been busy getting ready for a planned surgery next week which will have me out of office for a bit on recovery so I'm notably exhausted today. While life has been weird and rocky lately, my spirits are actually quite high at this point in time. I'm enjoying life, and looking forward to having some time off work to spin up some projects and spend time and socialize with my loved ones more 😄
Got an interview for a potential promotion at the company I work for. Pretty stoked.
congrats!
Welcome back! ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪
Week is going alright. Found out I'll be moving ahead with an interview to the tech stage, after that it's a full panel then the decision. Got a few other options but admittedly this one seems the best so far in terms of benefits and pay. I'm gonna try to crash course myself and refresh my knowledge.
Outside of that, I'll be "enjoying" a Pacific NW heatwave this week. At least I have AC, though.
Thankfully, its almost the end of my working week....2 nightshifts then I'm done..
Hope you enjoyed your time off..
Welcome back!
I'm on holiday at the Edinburgh fringe festival. Had like an hour's sleep but seen some great comedy already today. Treated myself to mussels and ice cream (not together) for dinner, looking forward to passing out at my hotel. Walked miles today which was much needed exercise even if my feet hurt!
Long day full of shows tomorrow, can't wait. Hardest thing will be pacing myself caffeine and alcohol wise. I'm not good at staying out all day
That sounds so fun! Are you going to write some reviews /comments about the shows?
I can if anyone would find it remotely interesting! I am posting on Mastodon. Honestly it's been brilliant so far
Thanks! Not sure if I can view that from here but I have a mastodon account I could probably dust off!
Mussels ftw
One of those foods I only really have when on holiday, can't deal with the smell when I cook at home
Agreed. Plus you can't see how much butter is in the sauce when someone else prepares it! Pure musselly bliss
So. Much. Butter... And Cream (used to be one of our best selling items where I worked). Butter truly is the secret to why restaurant food tastes just so good!
Was at the hospital earlier, my left foot was swollen until I couldn't walk. Hyperuricimea (high uric acid leve) was the cause.
Much better now, don't worry.
Still trying to come to terms with my new CPAP. I worked out a few bugs only to develop new ones. According to my smartwatch I'm still not staying in deep sleep for more than a minute or two at a time, and I'm absolutely exhausted. I'm hoping that it's just that the CPAP works as intended but I'm not used to it yet, because I'm not going to get any help from the ResMed drone who gave it to me. I'm relying on YouTube for advice, which has been both helpful and worrying- my device is apparently an APAP and many of the YouTube experts hate them and even call them dangerous.
I also got a stomach virus late last week, which I'm still getting over, which isn't conducive to good sleep. I had a massive fight with my adult son the day before I got sick, and then spent the weekend melting down from the sheer overwhelm of the exhaustion, illness, and emotional crap. I've been locked in my room since last Thursday and I'm not sure when it'll be safe to emerge.
I've been attempting to make youtube videos for the first time. I realized there was a topic surrounding the new zelda game that hadn't been covered yet so I am doing finishing touches on that. But its made me want to make more videos.
I'm really struggling to come up with a core theme or topic for my channel. I'm thinking of making some kind of video game / anime / Manga type content. The tricky part is I don't want to do just reviews and I don't want to make just gameplay or whatever either. I was thinking of talking about certain topics. The idea seems really vague though. I'm also trying to not get discouraged before I even start.
But realistically I know that section of youtube is pretty saturated. So I know that whatever I make needs to be solid otherwise nobody will want to watch it lol.
I've been watching creators for over a decade now. I have a general idea of what makes good content and I've been doing more specific research too. But I realize at some point t I just need to start publishing stuff
best of luck! i can't imagine trying to break into that space now. Honestly though, i feel like the YouTube game is aged enough that now there is always a certain percentage of users that are "in between" favorite channels, and that creates room for people like you to become their new favorite channel. I know for me personally, I used to watch a lot of Game Grumps, then I stopped with that once their politics started to bother me (the grooming allegations didn't help either). Then I watched a lot of Giant Bomb, and then a bunch of their core crew left and the content changed so i stopped watching that.
At each of these points i was a very "capturable" user, so idk. I think there's always a chunk of users like that these days, so don't feel like no one will care about your stuff, even if the space is saturated. "Saturation" is not a permanent state.
Thanks for the encouragement! Yeah I'm intimidated but I figure the worst that can happen is that I learn some new skills. So I figure it can't hurt to try haha.
Your thoughts on saturation are actually very similar to what I was thinking about too. Some of the channels that I started watching a lot only started in 2015 or 2017. So I figure it's worth a shot if I put some effort and elbow grease into it
I struggle with making videos sometimes too, even though we have a pretty clear vision for our channel. I encourage you to put your stuff out there! You'll find people who'd like to have those conversations with you and that can help to further define your content. It's daunting for sure, but it's been rewarding to build and find community by sharing what we're passionate about. For us, it's mostly garden related but there's always an opportunity to show other aspects of who you are. If you're worried about a theme, consider that your thoughtful take and genuine interest will be enough to bring folks to you, whatever topic you might decide to pour yourself into.
Thank you so much for the advice :)
I'm hoping I can make something that others can enjoy as much as I enjoy making it
When you're done with your video can you send it to me? I love Zelda.
Sure! I don't think it's anything too special to be honest. I found that nobody had covered what all the kilton statues looked like, so I went and gathered them all in one place so someone could look them up.
I'm still learning, but it was a good way to take those first steps. If you have any feedback I would love to hear it! I think for my next video I want to work on my audio levels more and figure out how to make my voice sound better.
These last two days I've been working on my digital wellbeing. Did some filtering on all my email accounts (i have about 7), and deleted 25-30% overall :D
It took a lot of willpower to actually revisit mails dating back to 2013. Fun trip to the past.
Not sure yet. I had the revelation that I struggle to set boundaries when I'm impaired by illness symptoms, though.
I have this friend that rang me up last night for advice on how she could set boundaries and after a 40 minute conversation about her life I realised I had been unable to take my own advice and set a limit on how much time I was willing to devote to that conversation.
My roomie wants to try living alone and our lease ends in a couple months. I'm really tired of paying my landlord's mortgage so I'm considering buying a decent looking prefab for 120k. I'm 28 and haven't even bought a car much less a house. But I can't stand renting and burning another 70k. It's ridiculous.
Bit early to tell, but I am looking forward to some good evenings planned.
Have a few social evenings this week that are just for me rather than family - (games night, pub trip, a work do etc). Very much needed as I’ve been feeling a tad isolated recently with work.
Just happened to all land on the same week, but they (mostly) kick off late enough that I can still help with the little boy bedtime routine so I don’t feel like I’m shirking parental duties. It wouldn’t really matter , my partner is awesome and would be plenty happy for me to have a few nights “off” - but always better when they dont come with that self inflicted guilt!
Ooof, I'm not doing well. My disabilities and chronic illnesses and chronic pain are flaring up in all kinds of ways and I had to overdraft my bank account by $20 to afford my medication and I don't know how the hell I'm going to get the money to dig out of that hole since I can't work due to the aforementioned disabilities. & Then on top of that I have no idea how I'm going to be able to afford my medication next week.
I had a friend helping me but they lost their job so I'm on my own. Everything is so damn expensive and DEAR GOD HELP ME I'M DROWNING 😭
Our air conditioner is broken and I'm super heat sensitive which is making the pain and other symptoms worse. In really stressed about that and the money and I don't know what to do. I don't have anything I can sell. I'm FUCKED. OhgodohgodohgodfuckfuckFUCK
You in the US, friend? I know our social safety net ain't great, but you should make sure you're on social security, EBT, Medicaid, the whole 9 if you can be. Our social services ain't great but they can go a LONG way if you use them right.
the weekend at the beach will be over tonight. i had too much work today, so i couldn't even pop out at lunchtime. still, i do think i got a bit of relaxing time in, and i feel a bit more even keeled than i have in awhile.
got my first few house sitting requests on rover. hopefully a few of them will actually go through so i can get a lil' extra money. my own dog needs a tooth pulled, but i've been putting it off because it's expensive and it's not bothering him to the point that he's not eating. hoping the rover gigs will eventually earn me enough to do that.
both dogs did really well at the beach house with my partner's parents' two dogs. one of them is ancient, but the other one is a 90lb goofball. my aussie did get nippy with him once over a toy, but i had him on a leash and was able to redirect right away.
Okay. Going on month two of a new job at a startup that is building a fusion power plant. Moved out from mother’s house in June. Started painting landscapes. Finally reaching the end of TOTK, just in time to start Sea of Stars (sidenote, gaming in 2023 has been FIRE)
huh? i thought humanity as a whole had only achieved net-positive fusion two times total, with the second time being only a few weeks ago. How is your startup creating a plant out of this technology already?
From someone else with an avid fascination with all things nuclear science; the only thing I can think of is "pregaming" infrastructure for when the technology gets to where it needs to be. The core concepts of fusion, how to harvest its energy, how to initiate it, and the risks involved are all understood at a foundational level, but the recent net gain achievements is likened to the Wright Brothers' first flight when the goal is to get to the moon. We proved its possible to get off the ground, which is no small feat, but we are a ways off from our goal.
Pretty good! I'm going to be able to get the first part to my custom PC next month (GPU, Raedon 6800 XT) so I'm pretty excited!
I am having whatever the programming equivalent of the reverse Midas Touch is this week. PRs that break things despite extensive testing beforehand, PRs that somehow break the infrastructure due to some obscure bug on their end that requires lengthy calls to Azure support, being left with no choice but to craft janky regex-based solutions to people keeping their data in inconsistent formats, and oh my god as much as I love IntelliJ I wish it was a bit more reliable about warning me when the config has a typo because our app does not start in a hurry.
I’m sure the programming gods will favour me a little more next week, but it is only Tuesday!
I'm working on a flyer for the open days of the place I work at. The hardest part is realizing that I'm a perfectionista and have to stop myself. I mean at this point I have files in writer, blender, Krita, Inkscape, and even unity. It's kinda absurd really, just for a tiny square one sided flyer.
Anyone else struggling with this blessingcurse?
If it looks good, it looks good!
lol i've been there, but i haven't gone quite that far in my obsession. That said, i haven't designed a flier that will be viewed by that many people, so maybe it's the added pressure.
What kinda stuff do you make?
Fortunately I don't have stage fright. I'm also a perfectionist with purely private things.
I've been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I'm just fatigued and my mental faculties aren't where they should be. I teach languages yet I can't remember words for basic things right now! So I'm taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
In other news, I'll be five months off alcohol this week. Social situations have become easier, I'm getting used to being a little bit goofy at parties and my friends have been super supportive! One even looked shocked when I held my partner's beer at a festival a few weeks ago and made a joke saying they couldn't remember the last time they saw me with a beer! It sounds small but it meant the world 😊
As I'm confined to my couch for the next little while I'm probably going to be a bit more active on beehaw! Hope you're all having a nice week!
I’ve been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I’m just fatigued and my mental faculties aren’t where they should be. I teach languages yet I can’t remember words for basic things right now! So I’m taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
2 years ago I would have said that sounds a lot like long COVID. I'm assuming you're vaxxed and everything so that's probably unlikely. Fingers crossed you feel better! Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content 😉
You're right I'm all vaxxed up! It's a real head scratcher. I don't have any physical symptoms other than being tired and having a sore head but the mental symptoms are awful! And of course having no physical symptoms (no cold symptoms) makes me feel like I'm faking it ughhh.
I'm a huge believer of listening to my body when it's in distress so I'm HOPING all this couch time will speed up my recovery.
Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content
Aye aye captain 🫡
I am not a medical professional but it sounds like you could have a bad migraine, or an iron or vitamin deficiency.
Congrats on 5 months sober!!! Quitting drinking was the best decision I ever made.
So weird that you mention the iron deficiency because a friend of mine literally just suggested that too. I follow a mostly plant based diet and I'm low on iron to begin with. Not only that but being sober means I don't get as many meaty takeaways as hungover treats, I wonder if that has affected my nutrition. Will put myself on some iron tablets and report back!
Okay. Fucking tired as shit, although that's not something that can be changed much considering complicated personal nonsense.
World Cup is going great. Having some fun with that. (As long as I ignore all social media and avoid going to "alien logo discussion site", which I made the mistake of doing today... shiver)
Today's game became a fucking roller coaster in the last ten minutes. Supported both teams and would have been fine if either won, but my slightly preferred team won, so I'm good.
Speaking of football, I decided to finally watch Ted Lasso. It was nice to have a show with some heart that doesn't embrace this bullshit cynicism so much else does (well, new animated Superman show also helps, thankfully).
Finale near wrecked me, but in a good way, and I actually just feel like I've done myself a good service simply by watching it.
Also, Hannah Waddingham is super awesome. I urge everyone to watch her appearance on QI (particularly the XL/extended version), because she was fucking hilarious and that's what initially spurred my interest in actually watching the show after sitting on it for so long (was a bit behind on QI as well).
A little stressed about work and money and trying to not panic about climate change. Overall just exhausted, fending off depression as best as I can, looking for new ways to keep myself motivated and excited about life. I'm going to experiment with new recipes this weekend.
I love your expression “feeling off depression” — I feel you! I hope you get better!
Lol that was a typo! I meant "fending off depression", thank you. I hope you're feeling better as well!
Last week is hellish for my mental health (depressed for entire week for no reason it seems.) but this week is pretty good! I get thing done, I feel better and enjoying my day so far! I hope you all have a good week or at least thing will get better soon!
i hate sudden random depression. try taking walks outside if you can and you haven't been doing that already! my old therapist used to recommend that all the time and i scoffed at it, but i've been going for walks every day this summer and I have been shocked by how low my depression and anxiety have been these past few months. Intrusive thoughts hate this one weird trick!
Oh yeah! Not going to lie, but I completely forget about this entire last week. What time do you like to go for a walk, if you don't mind me asking? In the morning or before sunset :o ?
Damn good this week
I'm currently on vacation for the week and turns out basically this whole week is supposed to be over 100F
I work in a hot warehouse going into truck trailers all day that are baking on the sun so I'm digging it
Good, been trying to understand assembly (I am failing miserably). It's been awesome!
This is an amazing attitude; thank you for sharing your joy with us.
Exhausted. Working 52.5 hours this week between my two jobs.
I'm under some financial and work stress but also enjoying life where I can. Looking forward to a nature hike and seeing Atmosphere live this weekend.
Good, been messing around with writing a N64 style renderer with gfx in Rust. Tho I'm probably leaving Beehaw, there seems to be TERFs in here.
Are you sure they were from Beehaw and not some other Lemmy/Kbin instance? Have you hit the report button?
On a sidenote, I haven't spotted them yet.
Report it to the moderators, they will shut those shits down. Beehaw is one of the more accepting communities I've come across especially with the mods - as someone else mentioned it could be other instances creeping in as well.
Few things are as fun as coding on a personal passion project.
Ready to kill myself.
I'm tired of struggling everyday for shit that doesn't seem to matter in a world that is on fire with people who hate me.
It is of great comfort to me to remember that most people are completely indifferent to me.
But for my part I hope you find some light in your life
I, for one, am eager to read of your comeback. I'm hopeful for you.
It's been a week since I stopped taking melatonin before going to sleep. I reach my dreamworld as easily as with the pill, but somehow my sleep is light and I wake up earlier... and I feel sleepy along the day.
Sometimes I feel like I need to things I did when I wasn't medicated. Like learning this or that language because yes. And giving up shortly after because yes.
Now, the good news:
I met a woman (transgender) on a dating app. Although she only writes me once per day, while I'm sleeping, we're talking for 5 days already. She seems legit. But given my previous bad experiences dating women from other countries online (again, when I wasn't diagnosed), I've some concerns: Will she want a LDR? How long will it last? ...?
I can say that long distance can be brutal, but also really really can work. I lived an 8 hour time difference from my partner for over 4 years and we just had to work out a system and timing of communication that worked for both of us. Now they're moving over here so that will probably make things easier. I hope it lasts for you both like it did for us :)
I’m at my grandma’s right now (in vacation). It’s been fun since 3 weeks. But I got so many projects to finish with friends, there’s this very mysterious military abandoned building we need to explore, etc… and I really want to see them before we get back to class.
Next year will be a hell, I won’t probably even be with them but I have to cope last year of high school.
I’m kinda depressed of being stuck here, I just wish I could explore the city for abandoned places… or anything to do.
I started doing philosophy, thinking when I’m not programming to get out of my depressed mind.
Send help lol
Way I see it, you've got your whole life ahead of you. When you get out of high school and either go to college or join the workforce or learn a trade (I did both; went to college, got a degree in biochemistry and now I do unionized construction [as part of a trade; I operate heavy equipment] for way more money), your entire life opens up. You can do whatever you want with that time, and live your life on your terms.
That said, there's gonna be times ahead that you may be stuck in one town or place. That'll be a good time to familiarize yourself with the area and see what's happening socially. Not just bars or gyms, but clubs, group activities, etc.
Urban exploration was always fun when I was your age, but just be careful. Especially if the abandoned building you and your friends are interested in is military. Never know what they forgot, or who's still watching the place.
Anyway, hang in there, it gets better.
Edit: Also when I say "clubs," I don't mean the dance floor. Hobby clubs.
I had a roof leak about 5 years ago that cause a lot of damage in one of the bedrooms. I fixed the leak but it took a long time to save up to fix the room. Last month I finally had enough money to get it fixed.
On Sunday, tropical storm Hilary caused several roof leaks including over the same bedroom. The ceiling, wall and carpet that I just replaced is destroyed along with a good chunk of ceiling in the garage. I can tear out the drywall in the garage and leave it, but idk how I'm going to afford to fix the roof and the bedroom.
So my week started out with a lot of frustration.
ugh DUDE that is the WORST
Week is okay! I've been not making plans with friends because i'm trying to reserve time for applying to new jobs, but spending more time at home has me a lil depressed. it's a small funk, and I'll get over it. It's just hard balancing carving out time for this when life keeps on happening. Reminds me why i've been putting this off for like 2 years now.
I've been tooling around with using GPT4all to write cover letters - tbd if that is worth the effort, but i hate writing cover letters from scratch so i'm willing to put up with a lot of BS if it saves me from that.
Ha, I've been using ChatGPT to write cover letters too! You still have to go in and edit it, but it saves soooooo much time.
I haven't made it to actually generating one yet (it's been a busy week), but it's good to hear that it helps!
Supervisor was being a prick last night during our shift, but I'm on 4-10s so I have the weekend now. And I'm unionized, so really whenever the mood strikes me, I can tell said supervisor to blow me. I'll still have a job. Thing is, the guy's like a parasite: if you let him get under your skin, he wins. So I bite my tongue and do my thing, fuck 'em.
Aside from that? Might finish Baldur's Gate 3 this weekend, but I've got errands to run and cleaning to do. Maybe some shopping. All in all, not a bad week. I leave the bullshit at work and live my life.
Not great, work is dumb and micromanaging is a pain
I have Baldur's Gate 3 brain rot. I can't stop looking at Astarion fan art.
Going decently. What little there has been of my summer is nearly over.
Last week of work in my summer position which came off my practicum in the spring, and in September I start my second and final year in my program.
I volunteered to moonlight in a second role at my day job. This week is the first time that the workload has been getting to me. I guess it's just going to be a stressful couple of weeks and then I'll get through it.
I won a bid on a house, finally WON a bid, and signed the paperwork and house went into pending.
But then because the seller realtor made a "mistake" and they managed to get another bid before we could get attorney approval letters filled out. So suddenly another offer came through and the seller realtor had a responsibility "in the interest of fairness" to present this offer even though contracts were already signed. In the interest of fairness they gave us the opportunity to outbid this offer, but of course they wouldnt tell us what that offer was to get an opportunity to potentially match it or just give up.
And in 3 fun days I got the ups and downs of anticipation of getting an answer, the emotional high of finally winning a bid and getting a house, the hype from planning inspection dates and imaging where I can go from house and how I can make it my own, the excitement and joy in telling the people, then the dread of not knowing if I'll be able to keep the house, and finally the anger and sadness from having this fucking shark take my house away right out of my hands.
I'm staying positive I know we'll find something, but this market is killing me.
I don’t know what jurisdiction you’re in, and even though I’m a lawyer, I’m not your lawyer, and this isn’t legal advice, and I have never seen your contract,
buuut…
I would get some legal advice from a real estate or professional negligence lawyer in your jurisdiction if I were you. That situation has the stink of contract breach / negligent realtor all over it.
Technically we still have a few days signing to get the attorney approval or rejection letter sent out. All theyre doing is having their attorney issue the rejection letter. So there really isnt much we can do on our end.
We could try and force them to honor to contract or at least get some compensation for the shady dealings, but it wouldnt be worth the cost or energy, especially when it's unlikely to yield any fruit.
All I can do is hope karma gets them, and that the same kind of shady buyer that does stuff like this is going to be a predator when it comes to negotiating after inspection is done. "based on insert typical stuff I think Im going to have to drop my offer to 10k under asking price".
I will keep an eye on this deal to see how things roll, and I will try to resist the urge to egg the house on the regular.
House buying is the absolute worst. I hate it so much…
You have to decide so much, on so little information and time. Hell you can spend longer researching a cheap kitchen appliance than a house.
Even when it’s all sorted it’s not really… not until you finally have the keys.
The only way I could be stay sane was shifting my way of thinking… eventually you will find your home and before long you’ll be making memories in it and will absolutely love your house. Every house you missed on was really a good thing in the end as it will lead you to that one house, your proper home.
Oh yeah, Im staying positive. I liked the area the house was in, and I think the house itself had a lot to offer, but it wasnt special and there are other houses. I'll find something better in the meantime though I deeply dislike having to get back into the grind.
Pretty awful. Work sucks and I had to put my cat down on Friday. She was my best friend. I was okay over the weekend but I am increasingly lonely and heartachey.
Grief comes in waves and you can never predict when one will hit. I lost my cat of 15 years a couple months ago and I still swear I hear his meow sometimes
I'm sorry for your loss. it will get easier, but i'm sure it doesn't feel like that right now
I lost my kitty last year. Was very close to her as well. I don't believe in ghosts but I think her ghost visited me in a dream shortly after she died. I'll miss her forever.
Very weird. I keep doing things and not being quite sure who's doing them. Having trouble not feeling super alone and isolated but also having trouble feeling like I'm me so it's kinda better in a weird way? Very strange. ... Kinda just wanted to tell somecritter about that, I guess 🤷♀
I hope it's okay if I pretend to bee a beehawer for a sec <.< I figure I kinda am in spirit, so maybe it's okay? Though lately Idunno if I'm me so who knows. wobbles awkwardly
Thank you for sharing. I don't have any special pearls of wisdom, except to say that I see you, you are not alone.
If you ever need someone to talk to, I am here. I'm sure the same is true for many folks on this big, federated universe.
And if you don't have someone to talk to in your world offline, there are plenty of resources for folks who would be happy to listen if you care to share more.
Hang in there!
Haven't posted on Lemmy before. Excited to be in a small queer community. This week: made some fun art with my partner, organized back if house at a nonprofit, had great coffee, and enjoyed nature
Aww sounds like my dream life!
we're excited to have you here! have an awesome week!
Ready to jump off of a fucking cliff.
Last week, Roommate loses extraordinary amount of money to a scammer. We ended up behind on rent and were served an eviction notice. Dealing with a rent bank now.
Last week is also my 31st birthday and I end up having a gout flare up. Because you know. That's fun. I usually have to walk with a cane because of a worthless knee but now I get to add a worthless foot on the other leg so yay.
Couldn't afford food or medication or really anything. Not as much of a problem at the moment but the stress still exists and having to plan for next month when the same situation is likely going to happen.
This morning I got off the toilet and put pressure on the wrong part of my foot. Instant agony and I shift balance to the other foot but it's not in a position to support my weight. Grab for something to steady myself and all I grab is the toilet seat which gets part of it ripped off of the toilet. So now I have to buy a fucking toilet seat as well. I am hobbling right now. It takes me 30 seconds to move to the bathroom which is next door to my bedroom. Normally that's like... 3 seconds. So god knows when i'll be able to go out and get a toilet seat. So that's gonna end up with me positioned weirdly for the next week until this dies down.
New chest pain that is not fun and god knows what the fuck is happening there but I can't see a doctor about it anytime soon. It's not 911 level of emergency. It's more of a nagging thing that comes and goes and feels muscular but still.
What is scary is heart has been doing a thing. Beating it's own samba every now and again.
I wrote myself into a corner with my DnD campaign and now I don't know what the fuck to do. We have a session tonight which will be finishing up a oneshot from before but still. I don't know what i'm gonna do and I can't think straight.
Please someone put me out of my misery.
If this keeps up you'll be in a mind controlled wheelchair, communicating via a series of beeps.
Seriously though, I hope your situation improves.
I've heard that consuming citrus (ideally lime-aide because it's more acidic) can help dissolve the crystals that causes gout to be so painful.
I hope that helps, friend.
Unfortunately I cannot afford it or leave the house to even buy it in the first place. Walking is essentially out. It feels like my foot is going to pop it's so swollen.
I'm not sure what to say. This is what Dr. GPT says:
"If you don't have access to a doctor due to financial constraints, there are still some steps you can take to manage gout:
Dietary Changes: Modify your diet to include foods that are low in purines, as high purine intake can contribute to gout. Avoid or limit organ meats, shellfish, and alcohol. Consume plenty of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, and lean proteins.
Hydration: Staying hydrated helps to flush out excess uric acid from your body. Drink plenty of water throughout the day.
Weight Management: Maintaining a healthy weight can reduce the risk of gout flare-ups. Losing weight if you're overweight can help manage gout symptoms.
Home Remedies: Some natural remedies like cherry juice, ginger, and turmeric have been suggested to have anti-inflammatory properties that might offer relief. However, their effectiveness varies among individuals.
Over-the-Counter Medications: Non-prescription pain relievers like ibuprofen or naproxen may help alleviate pain and inflammation. Always follow the recommended dosages and consult the package instructions.
Lifestyle Changes: Avoid alcohol and limit consumption of sugary beverages, as they can exacerbate gout symptoms.
Rest and Elevation: Resting the affected joint and elevating it can help reduce pain and swelling during a gout flare-up.
Remember, while these steps might provide some relief, they are not a substitute for professional medical advice. If your symptoms worsen or become unbearable, it's important to find a way to consult a healthcare professional, even if it means seeking out free or low-cost clinics, community health centers, or government health services in your area."
Maybe there are some low cost clinics in town.
Be careful with ChatGPT. It sometimes gives medical advice that is harmful.
This is true. Trust but verify.
Watching the drama unfold on lemmy.world and all the freeze peach warriors going ape shit over there has me grateful for this little corner.
It's like watching the history of internet filesharing and warez from the 90s on a speedrun. LW happened to be the most populous instance by chance, and the nature of federated network means the admins can get legally held liable for contents they didn't choose nor wanted to host, because all it takes is another federated server going rogue.
Sure, freedom of speech is fundamental. But it's a hard place between "saving yourself from financial and legal troubles" and "betraying the (vaguely defined) principles". When the crowd is shouting "freedom of speech", they don't just want a nice speech for an announcement; they want the admins become a martyr for the cause. And shit, what for? For some vague internet fame?
Had lemmy.ml become the largest instance, we would have potentially watched this unfold on lemmy devs themselves. Knowing their political affiliations, it might have turned into a different scenario. Legal threats might have been rebutted in an open way that even pleased the "freeze peach" crowd despite the "tankie" accusations. Perhaps all the extra pressure and legal threats meant Lemmy development come to a halt and slowly decline. But no one knows, really.
I don't condone nor condemn LW or its staff. I wish they didn't have to carry the baggage of becoming the guinea pig of this ongoing experiment.
I think people also for some reason think they are entitled to free speech, a.k.a. they can do whatever they want, and virtually any space they please. All it tells me is they lack a fundamental grasp of what the first amendment actually is and what it guarantees. I think they also forget the Internet operates outside of the US. 
I agree however I'd like to add that I do see piracy as being, at least partially, a social movement. Perhaps it isn't apparent to everyone, or right now, and maybe it'll never become anything, but still we should respect that there are different points of view on topics such as copyright. So I understand when people call it censoring when they have that point of view.
I just think vague gestures (not your doing) to someone’s personal interpretation of what free-speech is, which is generally “I should suffer no consequences for anything I say or do,“ hits a wall when it comes to asking somebody to host conversations and possible links to pirated content on their own servers. Especially when they are doing it on their own dime as a hobby and don’t have a legal team to protect them from the feds.
Yap it's really up to the host to decide I think. And also there's a huge difference between talking about piracy and actively sharing links.
Yeah I just can’t imagine running an instance. Minimum hundred dollars a month so I can constantly police content just to make sure people aren’t sharing CP or pirated content or otherwise illegal content all on my storage.
That's quite a lot of money. Then you'd have enough users to recruit some moderators.
care to explain that one? I haven't done much venturing in lemmy outside of our instance here, curious what the drama is?
They banned some piracy communities citing they don't want to be liable (seems reasonable to me but not sure how much merit there is there). Now people are screaming "censorship."
big yikes. i mean i'm no stranger to piracy communities but like...couldn't they just take the respective communities and spin up their own lemmy server somewhere else where the lemmy.world admins have no power? isn't that the point of this whole fediverse thing?
Having the communities removed does not prevent them from starting their own instance. They weren't even being hosted on Lemmy.world to begin with, so nothing has changed for them other than unmitigated posting/presence on world's instance. Any user who wants to participate in those communities still can. Nothing is stopping them.
lol so these are just the worst kind of losers? man. i'm with you, i am grateful for our lil community over here.
I just think there is so much drama happening because people don't understand the fediverse yet combined with this incessant need to catch "power tripping mods" on forums. Because something sounds bad and some alt-right troll rolls in stirring the pot, people suddenly start crying "FREE SPEECH!" when the content they want to see and comment on is just one keyboard stroke away.
Pardon my ignorance… lemmy.world?
So right now you are on a specific instance of lemmy or Kbin or whatever your preferred fediverse system is. Lemmy.world is an instance. Beehaw.org is a lemmy instance. Users can create accounts on both and can browse the content of the other instances, unless the instance they are on (let’s say 1) defederates from the other (2). Then you cant browse the other instance(2) from within the one (1) that chose to defederate. The content from 2 doesn’t appear anymore on 1. But there’s nothing stopping you from browsing either.

It's going pretty well, started my new job this week after 3.5 months unemployed!
My nesting partner played outside lands on Sunday and I've been busy getting ready for a planned surgery next week which will have me out of office for a bit on recovery so I'm notably exhausted today. While life has been weird and rocky lately, my spirits are actually quite high at this point in time. I'm enjoying life, and looking forward to having some time off work to spin up some projects and spend time and socialize with my loved ones more 😄
Got an interview for a potential promotion at the company I work for. Pretty stoked.
congrats!
Welcome back! ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪
Week is going alright. Found out I'll be moving ahead with an interview to the tech stage, after that it's a full panel then the decision. Got a few other options but admittedly this one seems the best so far in terms of benefits and pay. I'm gonna try to crash course myself and refresh my knowledge.
Outside of that, I'll be "enjoying" a Pacific NW heatwave this week. At least I have AC, though.
Thankfully, its almost the end of my working week....2 nightshifts then I'm done.. Hope you enjoyed your time off..
Welcome back!
I'm on holiday at the Edinburgh fringe festival. Had like an hour's sleep but seen some great comedy already today. Treated myself to mussels and ice cream (not together) for dinner, looking forward to passing out at my hotel. Walked miles today which was much needed exercise even if my feet hurt!
Long day full of shows tomorrow, can't wait. Hardest thing will be pacing myself caffeine and alcohol wise. I'm not good at staying out all day
That sounds so fun! Are you going to write some reviews /comments about the shows?
I can if anyone would find it remotely interesting! I am posting on Mastodon. Honestly it's been brilliant so far
Thanks! Not sure if I can view that from here but I have a mastodon account I could probably dust off!
Mussels ftw
One of those foods I only really have when on holiday, can't deal with the smell when I cook at home
Agreed. Plus you can't see how much butter is in the sauce when someone else prepares it! Pure musselly bliss
So. Much. Butter... And Cream (used to be one of our best selling items where I worked). Butter truly is the secret to why restaurant food tastes just so good!
Was at the hospital earlier, my left foot was swollen until I couldn't walk. Hyperuricimea (high uric acid leve) was the cause. Much better now, don't worry.
Still trying to come to terms with my new CPAP. I worked out a few bugs only to develop new ones. According to my smartwatch I'm still not staying in deep sleep for more than a minute or two at a time, and I'm absolutely exhausted. I'm hoping that it's just that the CPAP works as intended but I'm not used to it yet, because I'm not going to get any help from the ResMed drone who gave it to me. I'm relying on YouTube for advice, which has been both helpful and worrying- my device is apparently an APAP and many of the YouTube experts hate them and even call them dangerous.
I also got a stomach virus late last week, which I'm still getting over, which isn't conducive to good sleep. I had a massive fight with my adult son the day before I got sick, and then spent the weekend melting down from the sheer overwhelm of the exhaustion, illness, and emotional crap. I've been locked in my room since last Thursday and I'm not sure when it'll be safe to emerge.
I've been attempting to make youtube videos for the first time. I realized there was a topic surrounding the new zelda game that hadn't been covered yet so I am doing finishing touches on that. But its made me want to make more videos.
I'm really struggling to come up with a core theme or topic for my channel. I'm thinking of making some kind of video game / anime / Manga type content. The tricky part is I don't want to do just reviews and I don't want to make just gameplay or whatever either. I was thinking of talking about certain topics. The idea seems really vague though. I'm also trying to not get discouraged before I even start.
But realistically I know that section of youtube is pretty saturated. So I know that whatever I make needs to be solid otherwise nobody will want to watch it lol.
I've been watching creators for over a decade now. I have a general idea of what makes good content and I've been doing more specific research too. But I realize at some point t I just need to start publishing stuff
best of luck! i can't imagine trying to break into that space now. Honestly though, i feel like the YouTube game is aged enough that now there is always a certain percentage of users that are "in between" favorite channels, and that creates room for people like you to become their new favorite channel. I know for me personally, I used to watch a lot of Game Grumps, then I stopped with that once their politics started to bother me (the grooming allegations didn't help either). Then I watched a lot of Giant Bomb, and then a bunch of their core crew left and the content changed so i stopped watching that.
At each of these points i was a very "capturable" user, so idk. I think there's always a chunk of users like that these days, so don't feel like no one will care about your stuff, even if the space is saturated. "Saturation" is not a permanent state.
Thanks for the encouragement! Yeah I'm intimidated but I figure the worst that can happen is that I learn some new skills. So I figure it can't hurt to try haha.
Your thoughts on saturation are actually very similar to what I was thinking about too. Some of the channels that I started watching a lot only started in 2015 or 2017. So I figure it's worth a shot if I put some effort and elbow grease into it
I struggle with making videos sometimes too, even though we have a pretty clear vision for our channel. I encourage you to put your stuff out there! You'll find people who'd like to have those conversations with you and that can help to further define your content. It's daunting for sure, but it's been rewarding to build and find community by sharing what we're passionate about. For us, it's mostly garden related but there's always an opportunity to show other aspects of who you are. If you're worried about a theme, consider that your thoughtful take and genuine interest will be enough to bring folks to you, whatever topic you might decide to pour yourself into.
Thank you so much for the advice :) I'm hoping I can make something that others can enjoy as much as I enjoy making it
When you're done with your video can you send it to me? I love Zelda.
Sure! I don't think it's anything too special to be honest. I found that nobody had covered what all the kilton statues looked like, so I went and gathered them all in one place so someone could look them up.
I'm still learning, but it was a good way to take those first steps. If you have any feedback I would love to hear it! I think for my next video I want to work on my audio levels more and figure out how to make my voice sound better.
https://youtu.be/ZGirEb9WjF0
I'm proud of myself!!
These last two days I've been working on my digital wellbeing. Did some filtering on all my email accounts (i have about 7), and deleted 25-30% overall :D
It took a lot of willpower to actually revisit mails dating back to 2013. Fun trip to the past.
Not sure yet. I had the revelation that I struggle to set boundaries when I'm impaired by illness symptoms, though.
I have this friend that rang me up last night for advice on how she could set boundaries and after a 40 minute conversation about her life I realised I had been unable to take my own advice and set a limit on how much time I was willing to devote to that conversation.
My roomie wants to try living alone and our lease ends in a couple months. I'm really tired of paying my landlord's mortgage so I'm considering buying a decent looking prefab for 120k. I'm 28 and haven't even bought a car much less a house. But I can't stand renting and burning another 70k. It's ridiculous.
Bit early to tell, but I am looking forward to some good evenings planned.
Have a few social evenings this week that are just for me rather than family - (games night, pub trip, a work do etc). Very much needed as I’ve been feeling a tad isolated recently with work.
Just happened to all land on the same week, but they (mostly) kick off late enough that I can still help with the little boy bedtime routine so I don’t feel like I’m shirking parental duties. It wouldn’t really matter , my partner is awesome and would be plenty happy for me to have a few nights “off” - but always better when they dont come with that self inflicted guilt!
Ooof, I'm not doing well. My disabilities and chronic illnesses and chronic pain are flaring up in all kinds of ways and I had to overdraft my bank account by $20 to afford my medication and I don't know how the hell I'm going to get the money to dig out of that hole since I can't work due to the aforementioned disabilities. & Then on top of that I have no idea how I'm going to be able to afford my medication next week.
I had a friend helping me but they lost their job so I'm on my own. Everything is so damn expensive and DEAR GOD HELP ME I'M DROWNING 😭
Our air conditioner is broken and I'm super heat sensitive which is making the pain and other symptoms worse. In really stressed about that and the money and I don't know what to do. I don't have anything I can sell. I'm FUCKED. OhgodohgodohgodfuckfuckFUCK
You in the US, friend? I know our social safety net ain't great, but you should make sure you're on social security, EBT, Medicaid, the whole 9 if you can be. Our social services ain't great but they can go a LONG way if you use them right.
the weekend at the beach will be over tonight. i had too much work today, so i couldn't even pop out at lunchtime. still, i do think i got a bit of relaxing time in, and i feel a bit more even keeled than i have in awhile.
got my first few house sitting requests on rover. hopefully a few of them will actually go through so i can get a lil' extra money. my own dog needs a tooth pulled, but i've been putting it off because it's expensive and it's not bothering him to the point that he's not eating. hoping the rover gigs will eventually earn me enough to do that.
both dogs did really well at the beach house with my partner's parents' two dogs. one of them is ancient, but the other one is a 90lb goofball. my aussie did get nippy with him once over a toy, but i had him on a leash and was able to redirect right away.
Okay. Going on month two of a new job at a startup that is building a fusion power plant. Moved out from mother’s house in June. Started painting landscapes. Finally reaching the end of TOTK, just in time to start Sea of Stars (sidenote, gaming in 2023 has been FIRE)
huh? i thought humanity as a whole had only achieved net-positive fusion two times total, with the second time being only a few weeks ago. How is your startup creating a plant out of this technology already?
From someone else with an avid fascination with all things nuclear science; the only thing I can think of is "pregaming" infrastructure for when the technology gets to where it needs to be. The core concepts of fusion, how to harvest its energy, how to initiate it, and the risks involved are all understood at a foundational level, but the recent net gain achievements is likened to the Wright Brothers' first flight when the goal is to get to the moon. We proved its possible to get off the ground, which is no small feat, but we are a ways off from our goal.
Pretty good! I'm going to be able to get the first part to my custom PC next month (GPU, Raedon 6800 XT) so I'm pretty excited!
I am having whatever the programming equivalent of the reverse Midas Touch is this week. PRs that break things despite extensive testing beforehand, PRs that somehow break the infrastructure due to some obscure bug on their end that requires lengthy calls to Azure support, being left with no choice but to craft janky regex-based solutions to people keeping their data in inconsistent formats, and oh my god as much as I love IntelliJ I wish it was a bit more reliable about warning me when the config has a typo because our app does not start in a hurry.
I’m sure the programming gods will favour me a little more next week, but it is only Tuesday!
I'm working on a flyer for the open days of the place I work at. The hardest part is realizing that I'm a perfectionista and have to stop myself. I mean at this point I have files in writer, blender, Krita, Inkscape, and even unity. It's kinda absurd really, just for a tiny square one sided flyer.
Anyone else struggling with this blessingcurse?
If it looks good, it looks good!
lol i've been there, but i haven't gone quite that far in my obsession. That said, i haven't designed a flier that will be viewed by that many people, so maybe it's the added pressure.
What kinda stuff do you make?
Fortunately I don't have stage fright. I'm also a perfectionist with purely private things.
I've been struck down by some mystery illness. My head hurts but mostly I'm just fatigued and my mental faculties aren't where they should be. I teach languages yet I can't remember words for basic things right now! So I'm taking a few days off to recover. Hopefully will be back in by the end of the week.
In other news, I'll be five months off alcohol this week. Social situations have become easier, I'm getting used to being a little bit goofy at parties and my friends have been super supportive! One even looked shocked when I held my partner's beer at a festival a few weeks ago and made a joke saying they couldn't remember the last time they saw me with a beer! It sounds small but it meant the world 😊
As I'm confined to my couch for the next little while I'm probably going to be a bit more active on beehaw! Hope you're all having a nice week!
2 years ago I would have said that sounds a lot like long COVID. I'm assuming you're vaxxed and everything so that's probably unlikely. Fingers crossed you feel better! Make some posts in your favorite communities here. We need the content 😉
You're right I'm all vaxxed up! It's a real head scratcher. I don't have any physical symptoms other than being tired and having a sore head but the mental symptoms are awful! And of course having no physical symptoms (no cold symptoms) makes me feel like I'm faking it ughhh.
I'm a huge believer of listening to my body when it's in distress so I'm HOPING all this couch time will speed up my recovery.
Aye aye captain 🫡
I am not a medical professional but it sounds like you could have a bad migraine, or an iron or vitamin deficiency.
Congrats on 5 months sober!!! Quitting drinking was the best decision I ever made.
So weird that you mention the iron deficiency because a friend of mine literally just suggested that too. I follow a mostly plant based diet and I'm low on iron to begin with. Not only that but being sober means I don't get as many meaty takeaways as hungover treats, I wonder if that has affected my nutrition. Will put myself on some iron tablets and report back!
Okay. Fucking tired as shit, although that's not something that can be changed much considering complicated personal nonsense.
World Cup is going great. Having some fun with that. (As long as I ignore all social media and avoid going to "alien logo discussion site", which I made the mistake of doing today... shiver)
Today's game became a fucking roller coaster in the last ten minutes. Supported both teams and would have been fine if either won, but my slightly preferred team won, so I'm good.
Speaking of football, I decided to finally watch Ted Lasso. It was nice to have a show with some heart that doesn't embrace this bullshit cynicism so much else does (well, new animated Superman show also helps, thankfully).
Finale near wrecked me, but in a good way, and I actually just feel like I've done myself a good service simply by watching it.
Also, Hannah Waddingham is super awesome. I urge everyone to watch her appearance on QI (particularly the XL/extended version), because she was fucking hilarious and that's what initially spurred my interest in actually watching the show after sitting on it for so long (was a bit behind on QI as well).
A little stressed about work and money and trying to not panic about climate change. Overall just exhausted, fending off depression as best as I can, looking for new ways to keep myself motivated and excited about life. I'm going to experiment with new recipes this weekend.
I love your expression “feeling off depression” — I feel you! I hope you get better!
Lol that was a typo! I meant "fending off depression", thank you. I hope you're feeling better as well!
Last week is hellish for my mental health (depressed for entire week for no reason it seems.) but this week is pretty good! I get thing done, I feel better and enjoying my day so far! I hope you all have a good week or at least thing will get better soon!
i hate sudden random depression. try taking walks outside if you can and you haven't been doing that already! my old therapist used to recommend that all the time and i scoffed at it, but i've been going for walks every day this summer and I have been shocked by how low my depression and anxiety have been these past few months. Intrusive thoughts hate this one weird trick!
Oh yeah! Not going to lie, but I completely forget about this entire last week. What time do you like to go for a walk, if you don't mind me asking? In the morning or before sunset :o ?
Damn good this week
I'm currently on vacation for the week and turns out basically this whole week is supposed to be over 100F
I work in a hot warehouse going into truck trailers all day that are baking on the sun so I'm digging it
Good, been trying to understand assembly (I am failing miserably). It's been awesome!
This is an amazing attitude; thank you for sharing your joy with us.
Exhausted. Working 52.5 hours this week between my two jobs.
I'm under some financial and work stress but also enjoying life where I can. Looking forward to a nature hike and seeing Atmosphere live this weekend.
Good, been messing around with writing a N64 style renderer with gfx in Rust. Tho I'm probably leaving Beehaw, there seems to be TERFs in here.
Are you sure they were from Beehaw and not some other Lemmy/Kbin instance? Have you hit the report button? On a sidenote, I haven't spotted them yet.
Report it to the moderators, they will shut those shits down. Beehaw is one of the more accepting communities I've come across especially with the mods - as someone else mentioned it could be other instances creeping in as well.
Few things are as fun as coding on a personal passion project.
Ready to kill myself.
I'm tired of struggling everyday for shit that doesn't seem to matter in a world that is on fire with people who hate me.
It is of great comfort to me to remember that most people are completely indifferent to me.
But for my part I hope you find some light in your life
I, for one, am eager to read of your comeback. I'm hopeful for you.
Half good, half bad.
Let's start for the bad:
It's been a week since I stopped taking melatonin before going to sleep. I reach my dreamworld as easily as with the pill, but somehow my sleep is light and I wake up earlier... and I feel sleepy along the day.
Sometimes I feel like I need to things I did when I wasn't medicated. Like learning this or that language because yes. And giving up shortly after because yes.
Now, the good news:
I can say that long distance can be brutal, but also really really can work. I lived an 8 hour time difference from my partner for over 4 years and we just had to work out a system and timing of communication that worked for both of us. Now they're moving over here so that will probably make things easier. I hope it lasts for you both like it did for us :)
I’m at my grandma’s right now (in vacation). It’s been fun since 3 weeks. But I got so many projects to finish with friends, there’s this very mysterious military abandoned building we need to explore, etc… and I really want to see them before we get back to class.
Next year will be a hell, I won’t probably even be with them but I have to cope last year of high school.
I’m kinda depressed of being stuck here, I just wish I could explore the city for abandoned places… or anything to do.
I started doing philosophy, thinking when I’m not programming to get out of my depressed mind.
Send help lol
Way I see it, you've got your whole life ahead of you. When you get out of high school and either go to college or join the workforce or learn a trade (I did both; went to college, got a degree in biochemistry and now I do unionized construction [as part of a trade; I operate heavy equipment] for way more money), your entire life opens up. You can do whatever you want with that time, and live your life on your terms.
That said, there's gonna be times ahead that you may be stuck in one town or place. That'll be a good time to familiarize yourself with the area and see what's happening socially. Not just bars or gyms, but clubs, group activities, etc.
Urban exploration was always fun when I was your age, but just be careful. Especially if the abandoned building you and your friends are interested in is military. Never know what they forgot, or who's still watching the place.
Anyway, hang in there, it gets better.
Edit: Also when I say "clubs," I don't mean the dance floor. Hobby clubs.
I had a roof leak about 5 years ago that cause a lot of damage in one of the bedrooms. I fixed the leak but it took a long time to save up to fix the room. Last month I finally had enough money to get it fixed.
On Sunday, tropical storm Hilary caused several roof leaks including over the same bedroom. The ceiling, wall and carpet that I just replaced is destroyed along with a good chunk of ceiling in the garage. I can tear out the drywall in the garage and leave it, but idk how I'm going to afford to fix the roof and the bedroom.
So my week started out with a lot of frustration.
ugh DUDE that is the WORST
Week is okay! I've been not making plans with friends because i'm trying to reserve time for applying to new jobs, but spending more time at home has me a lil depressed. it's a small funk, and I'll get over it. It's just hard balancing carving out time for this when life keeps on happening. Reminds me why i've been putting this off for like 2 years now.
I've been tooling around with using GPT4all to write cover letters - tbd if that is worth the effort, but i hate writing cover letters from scratch so i'm willing to put up with a lot of BS if it saves me from that.
Ha, I've been using ChatGPT to write cover letters too! You still have to go in and edit it, but it saves soooooo much time.
I haven't made it to actually generating one yet (it's been a busy week), but it's good to hear that it helps!
Supervisor was being a prick last night during our shift, but I'm on 4-10s so I have the weekend now. And I'm unionized, so really whenever the mood strikes me, I can tell said supervisor to blow me. I'll still have a job. Thing is, the guy's like a parasite: if you let him get under your skin, he wins. So I bite my tongue and do my thing, fuck 'em.
Aside from that? Might finish Baldur's Gate 3 this weekend, but I've got errands to run and cleaning to do. Maybe some shopping. All in all, not a bad week. I leave the bullshit at work and live my life.
Not great, work is dumb and micromanaging is a pain
I have Baldur's Gate 3 brain rot. I can't stop looking at Astarion fan art.
Going decently. What little there has been of my summer is nearly over.
Last week of work in my summer position which came off my practicum in the spring, and in September I start my second and final year in my program.
I volunteered to moonlight in a second role at my day job. This week is the first time that the workload has been getting to me. I guess it's just going to be a stressful couple of weeks and then I'll get through it.