how's your week going, Beehaw

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belated again, we're once again busy but everything continues to run smoothly. hoping for no huge migration, also we're updating to 0.18 Soon

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I'm doing pretty good. One more week of work before a long overdue vacation. Also finally had a consultation for gender affirming surgery which I am so so excited about. Things looking good at the moment!

Having just a teensy bit of a nervous breakdown reevaluating my life choices the night before a job interview.

Gonna try to get to sleep, though.

Best of luck on your interview and I hope you get some rest

Monday. Alarm goes off. Partner says to turn it off cause she set hers for later. She did not.

Cue panic mode.

Partner looks at clock. It is 8:22. Son needs to be at school in 8 minutes. There is a class trip.

We made it. School is across the street.

Came home. Sat on couch and wasted time on internet. At 9:30 my phone pings. Says I have a meeting at 10. I think, "that's a mistake...I work this afternoon".

I check the online schedule. I have meetings all morning from 10 to 1PM.

Cue panic. Shower and eating. Dressed. Run out the door. Exhausted. Hot. No coffee.

Phone dies as I sit down for the first meeting.

Not an awesome start. But, kinda fun in a way.

Nothing like a chaotic start to a week! Hopefully you just got it all concentrated at the start so now things will be smooth sailing :)

I partied too hard this last weekend because so many pride parties. I knew artists at 3 gigs and ended up running host/mgr duty for 2 (luckily one had host assigned because it was a bigger venue). I think I ended up at like 7 different parties plus the main parade, I kinda lost count lol. I'm not sick, but I can tell I'm probably gonna be soon. 11/10 worth it, fun fun weekend

Olivia Chow just won the Toronto by-election, so my week is off to a good start :)

Also, Pride was over the weekend, and I got a new bike.

Oooh, new bikes are exciting! (Shameless community plug: feel free to post a pic on !bicycles@lemmy.ca)

I didn't know there was an election going on in Toronto, I just looked up Chow and she seems dope. I'm happy Canada's largest city has a sensible mayor (for once)!

Thanks for the heads up, subscribed :) Might post a photo later.

Starting the fun task of looking for work. Have a few prospects but god i just wish i had another option. Still, im not at risk of being back homeless and i got some time to rest so i should be grateful. I just had hoped i would be more mentally healthy before i had to go back, you know?

I hear you. My partner was in, what sounds like, a similar situation. Be gentle on yourself. It's a process. You likely know all the steps to take, keep taking them. There will likely be rejection along the way, it's not a statement or judgment on who you are it's just the process. You will make it to the other side and you will find succees and happiness. I know it!

Thank you for the kind words. It's never as bad as I feel like it'll be, but the apprehension is kicking my butt. Logically I know every job I have had, they were unhappy to see me go! Brains are so weird sometimes...

My annual review morphed into a long meeting where the outcome was all involved realized the position wasn't going to allow me any growth, and they can't just create a higher-paying position for me (10 employees total), and they don't really want automation because what they have requires no training.

On the plus side, no one's really eager for me to go, so I have quite a bit of paid runway. I'd been thinking more over the weekend anyway about how I couldn't honestly say I was enjoying my job anymore, and I guess I hadn't been hiding that as well as I thought.

Now, all I need to do is find a new job while executing an even larger lifestyle change.

Good luck with the job search! Sounds like new and exciting things may be on the way for you. With any life style change, be kind and patient with yourself.

built my first pc a couple days ago :) im really happy with it

What game did you christen your PC with? I brought my GPU into the world knowing Elden Ring as its first breath :P

hitman 3! its pretty well optimized and looks really good

Good choice, great series! Throwing things at the backs of people's heads never gets old.

Oooo nice! How difficult would you say it was to build (scale of 1-10)?

Glad you're happy! What are its specs and what are you going to use it for?

My week is going well.

We adopted a lovely pair of cats at the weekend, who are settling in really well. They're Certified Good Cats.

Milo -Milo

Molly - Molly

helLO! They are gorgeous! Gibe them lots of treats for being such good cats pls x

Not sure how I can increase their already stratospheric Dreamies intake, but rest assured I will try.

Prayer circle for my car… hoping to get it back from the shop this week so I can go see my friends for Canada Day!

Pretty great actually! I just signed the offer letter for a new job and will turn in my notice at my current job later today. I've also been reconnecting with some old friends and was able connect some of them back with each other too. I stayed up a little late playing some games with them last night. It was great hearing everyone goofing around together again, it almost felt llike no time had passed at all

Mine not so good. I had some problems with my mother and the relationship is not going well. I hope everything goes better with the time or I will be forced to leave home.

Will be better when it’s over. Last week in a job that my days are numbered in, hopefully the next adventure will be more energising.

By the way, when I upgraded from 0.17.4 to 0.18.0, I noticed the UI for blocking instances changed and was missing my list in the admin panel (still visible on the /instances page). I added a blocked instance and it nuked my entire pre-0.18 list. Might have been a freak accident but it might be worth making a copy of Beehaw’s first just in case. Oh and it’s no longer comma-separated, you have to add them one-by-one

The block list should show up on the admin page if you refresh when it shows up empty. At least, that's how it behaves on mine.

We've heard from others that you have to re-add the entire list in .18.0 when making changes

I have a copy of our existing list already

I really was dreading work this week. There are a number of large things that are kind of just getting kicked down the road so it’s hard to truly disconnect on the weekends. I have a good plan and support network but it’s just a long road.

Sometimes in life, we have to just accept being uncomfortable and work through it. I have also found a new power in positive self-talk, combining this with meditation has given me some well needed moments of peace of mind.

Well week 2 of "potentially going to just end up homeless" is pretty shit too. Looked at a house an hour away, it was awful, roof in disrepair, the guy was living in one room and smoking in it after his divorce so the whole house smelled like smoke, there was moss growing in a window. Multiple other issues. Noped out of that one.

Stared at realtor site longer.

One gets listed that's perfect, it meets every single one of our needs and isn't a long commute, we go look, put in an offer. We have the highest offer. Our agent calls saying the realtor says if we can offer a gap coverage if the house appraises lower we'll be close, we can do a small gap (5k) and still have enough to close. She calls back later, apparently they're now between us and another offer, but they have a higher gap so if we can offer 10k and extend closing date we'll probably get it. Talk to family, they say we can borrow 3k if necessary, great we have just enough.

Nope they did the same thing to the other buyer and increased the gap and chose them.

I just want to give up. Fuck all of this, fuck shitty landlords and fuck scummy real estate agents, fuck the housing market, fuck not having enough money, fml

That sounds like an absolute nightmare, I'm really sorry. I hope everything will end up fine.

I'm okay... just looking for a job still... depressed...

It's been really nice so far! I got to go to pride over the weekend which was a lot of fun and I'll be having a phone interview for a job tomorrow!

I just started Summer Vacation today! Will be going on a hiking trip with my sisters in Norway in a couple of days, can't wait! Hope you all are doing great :)

that sounds like so much fun! i hope you enjoy your summer :)

Doing great! Binged 7 episodes of Lost with my husband today after watching Mike’s Mic’s Appropriately Unhinged Recap of Lost S1. Had to get back to it after taking a break from the intense stories

So you're saying you watched the recap to avoid getting.....

....Lost? 😎

Yay!! Lost has become a pretty underrated show, it always makes me happy when people are still watching and talking about it ♥

Stressing out!! Waiting for my broken car to get fixed, which I can barely afford, and will be fixed... on the day I go in for top surgery... on the 5th of July. So much financial juggling and trying to do things while being scared of getting sick at all.

At least Beehaw is here to decompress with. ~u~

Found a new spot with really good empanadas. 14yo son is going for his first job interview tomorrow. Looking to slow down a little this week.

That's a big day for you and your son! Congratulations and the more empanadas the better!

I took next week off from work just because I can and I don't know what I'm going to do. I'd like to make the most of it but I can't decide between doing something really cool and doing nothing at all; both are tempting!

Otherwise, things are going pretty great. I might be able to go full remote at work (which would mean I don't need to quit anymore), and I've prepared a wonderful peach, feta & cucumber salad for lunch.

I am supremely jealous of your ability to take time and have no idea what to do. I have a 7 month old kiddo and a partner who plans our calendar months in advance. I dont think I'll ever have a weeklong stretch of unspoked for time ever again in my whole life.

I am incredibly lucky to live in a country that strongly protects workers, to have no children and to be able to afford an apartment 10mins away from my partner's place rather than living together and depending on each other's calendar. I remember how lucky I am every day. I really hope the baby is doing well and that things will settle down in a year or two - obviously it's still not going to be "unspoken for time", but hopefully things will settle down a bit at least!

Glad to hear that you live in such a wonderful place! The baby is indeed doing well, and relatively speaking so are we (the parents). Here's to a calmer life in the medium-term haha!

i am unimaginably sleepy

Hats off to you and the team! May many hours of sleep be bestowed upon you for countless nights to come.

Well I was accepted here so that's great!

Aside from that, work was pretty chill today, I have a lot of training to do for this new product we're selling, and I'm trying some new recipes!

Turns out I might have either lupus ("it's never lupus", until it is) and/or Sjögren's syndrome. Got a bunch of incredibly expensive blood tests done today (yay universal healthcare. Oh wait the conservatives effectively destroyed it so I have to use private healthcare and I'm uninsurable due to pre-existing conditions) and now I'm just waiting and experiencing nontrivial amounts of dread. Life was already barely worth living what with my existing health issues that already include autoimmune conditions, so this is just icing on the cake

Wow that sounds like a lot. I really hate the idea of privatized healthcare and I hope we do away with it eventually. I'm sending some good vibes your way, I hope your week turns around for you. ❤ We care about you

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Taking my hiking group to snow for hiking this weekend. Really looking forward to it

I think I might be sick. Felt overly exhausted all weekend and had an impossible time today making my brain work

Had a lovely time at a Pride event on Saturday.

Then fell a bit poorly, to the extent my partner just pointed me at the bed and I passed out the previous two nights without raising any fuss.

Turbocleaned the house last night, passed out, woke up early. Not sure what I'm going to do now, but I think I'm just going to try and enjoy myself for a bit, as a reward.

Life has been slow and lately I'm having a bit of self doubt. But today I get to eat dominos pizza, so... I'm happy in the moment. I dunno why but the pizza is just really good to me rn lol.

Got chipotle today and that makes everything better :)

Otherwise busy with work and procrastinating on everything possible as usual

I am unimaginably sleepy

This.

Loooong weekend with a very heavy Monday. My mind is frayed after work today, but I was actually able to make decent progress on something that's been on huge stress. I feel good about that. It certainly isn't an engineering masterpiece, but it does the job which makes me super glad! Looking forward to getting it near complete tomorrow.

Now, I just wanna go to bed, but I promised my two youngest another (what feels like) ten million rounds of Smash Bros. 💫 😬

As much as mushy as my brain feels in the moment, I have a lot to be grateful for. 💜

Plus, there's birthday cake left over from this weekend. 🤪

It's going well. I just got my degree. I've moved, cat and partner is settling in OK as well (cat currently resting underneath the bush outside the door, partner in the sofa). Starting my new job next week, so now I'm just enjoying the summer, gaming and relaxing.

How was moving with a cat? Did you let them wander outdoors straight away or did you keep them in for a bit?

I know moving is something I'll have to do with mine at some stage and I'm so worried about how it'll go!

We've moved with our cat twice now and are preparing for our third. We're very lucky in that my partner's parents live in the same city, so we always take the cat to their house, leave her there while we get everything moved, and then take her to the new place once it's ready. That seems to stress her out less than moving everything while she's around, and she gets a nice vacation out of the deal!

She's maybe a little nervous for the first day or two, but always seems to settle in quickly. She also does this adorable thing whenever she goes somewhere new. She'll slowly walk along the perimeter of each room, mapping it out and sniffing everything, and when she's ready, she'll go on to the next room and repeat. It's really quite something to watch!

Hey, my week’s been pretty good. I’m on break for the next ~2 months which means sleeping in and no school. Since I travel in my free time as a hobby, I sometimes need to get up early to catch the bus or train, but I think it’s fun nonetheless. I have been making some future goals for myself when it comes to education and what kind of work I want to pursue, which has put my mind at ease. Hoping everybody else is doing great!

Feeling good so far: I’m working toward my Salesforce Admin cert and I spent the morning learning about some cool reporting functionalities I never used in my past sales roles.

Also finally finished some severely-delayed Spring cleaning: I gathered a bunch of stuff to throw away a few weeks ago, but got sidetracked and left it sitting by the stairs until my brain labeled it “furniture” and forgot it was there even though it was a giant pile of clutter in plain sight. (Does this happen to anyone else??)

I also went to Trader Joe’s and found a unicorn: a tired, unenthused cashier. But right as I was about to say “you really don’t have to give commentary on my purchases, it’s cool” another cashier ran up and complimented my haircut. Darn it, maybe I’ll escape next time. At least I know jaded Trader Joe’s cashiers exist now.

We don't have Trader Joe's in my neck of the woods so I'm so curious, is this actually a thing that their cashiers are trained to do? Give commentary on clients' purchases? I'd hate that so much. I don't want to know what the cashier's thinking as a buy a 6-pack of beer, chips, and veggie chik'n nuggets at 9:47pm on a Tuesday.

(As for perceiving giant piles of clutter as furniture after some time, I'm glad to let you know you're not alone. I have a pile of scarves and gloves that has become an art piece in my bedroom.)

Trying to find a new place before my lease expires next month. Also trying to find a better job. So altogether, I'm doing.

Hello! Playing Tears of the Kingdom more this week, just hit 150hrs. Also bee-n playing BattleBit on Steam so that's been fun.

BattleBit? What's that? Don't think I've heard of it.

It's like Battlefield 4 mixed with CoD, with a couple sprinkles of milsim and presented with blocky soldiers..

That being said, it's a hell of a lot of fun, if you don't mind dying often.

It's a battlefield style indie game that does it better than actual battlefield, very fun.

I'm currently on holidays in Lanzarote. Will be returning home on Thursday.

Not bad! Had my first shift in a new job last night and I LOVED it! It's just a part time thing a few hours a week but I really feel like I'm playing to my strengths in my job at last.

Had a bit of a wild weekend (happy pride!) so I've been doing my best to eat clean, exercise and take lots of supplements. Did my first spin class in years yesterday and it wasn't complete torture! Still not feeling 100% but I've definitely been through worse.

Take a nap!

My sleeping schedule is bananas. I decided to just give up, and I've been slowly going to sleep at later and later times. Currently my bed time is ~5pm. A month ago it was ~4am. :s

pretty well so far i had some great news i heard so yay

Beelated, you mean ;) but in all seriousness just let me know if you need any help

My week is going well.

I was planning to attend the local pride parade and festival yesterday, but didn't go due to sheer laziness lol. So I got stoned and watched YouTube with my boyfriend instead.

Speaking of my boyfriend, three of his Horror Bishoujo figurines came in the mail from Japan today (Chucky, Freddy Krueger, and Edward Scissorhands). He's excited to put them up and I'm happy for him.

Got a job offer for basically my same job +25% pay. Hoping my current place is willing to negotiate a match though because going to a bigger company would also give me less freedom to work on what I want.

Waiting to call my boss this afternoon.

It's stressful, to say the least.

I'm new here and I'm new to Lemmy too. I'm excited to learn and be here in beehaw, yeehaw

I started therapy recently and after my session yesterday I felt really similar to how I've felt in the past after unloading a lot of my emotions in a giant cry session. I think that means I've unbottled those emotions in a healthier way this time, which is exciting!

Work is still stressful though, but I'll keep getting by.

It's going okay so far, but my area is forecast to have highs in the 100s later this week and I'm not sure how that's gonna affect me, since I only really know how to dress in layers for work (I'm a trans woman working an office IT job where I do occasionally step outside or carry computers from one bldg to another)

Like, I'm gonna be wearing a thin cardigan over a tank top and I know I'm gonna sweat. Oh, and my hair instantly goes frizzy when I sweat. I'm dreading it.

i’m on my third day of a sore throat. doc confirmed it’s not strep, and i do seem to be slowly recovering, but ugh being sick sucks.

I've been incredibly bored! I'm 5 or 6 episodes from finishing The Sopranos but can't bring myself to watch it 😎 I will later today though

Away on holiday and have immediately come down with a stinking cold. Boo! (Still happy for a holiday anyway)

I’m existing been stressing cause work project is wrapping up. I need a vacation.

Sounds like you do! What can you do to make it happen?

Can you take that vacation once the project is over? Or are you trying not to think about it so you avoid getting distracted?

It is already too much. I am not looking forward to the rest. I am happy alyaza is here to share all the links to keep me from thinking about work too much. Thank you alyaza!

It's OK, although not very good.

For one, I now suffers from sleep OCD. Every time I put my head into the pillow, I always have the feeling that I slept just slightly out of the middle of the pillow, even though I clearly don't.

This happens to other things, too. I kept changing the fan, the sleep position, the blanket, over and over again. And I think it's a main reason why I can't sleep well in the past couple of days. I have a really good sleep yesterday tho.

I also, temporarily, develop a fear for sleep. I don't know if this comes from me watching too much creepy TV IDs, or that one thought about a TV sign-off that is straight up horror movie to terrify the children, but whenever I sleep, I feel a sense of danger, like something is gonna come out of nowhere and devour me.

I don't know what it is. I just know it is something terrifying.

Anyways, in the past week I have been focusing more on my social media presence. I don't know why but I seem to focus more on how's my account doing, how's my art doing, etc.

For a Monday it's not so bad. Had a great dental cleaning, dinner with the wife's fam, some couch cuddle time with the dog. Can't complain really!

I gave my boots to the local cobbler (one of two in a 30 km radius) because the sole is coming off and getting hole-y. This guy, whom I assumed would have maybe a couple repair jobs every few months, is completely overbooked and thus I'll see my boots in maybe five weeks or so again. But, honestly, I'm glad for him that his little shop is booming (relatively speaking)

A lot of the older style trades are making a big comeback, so this isn't that surprising. Hopefully, others will see how booked up they are and open more in the area for you

Pretty good. I passed my licensure exam on the first try and I'm the only person I know who did that AND took the test that others avoid. I honestly just wanted my life back whether I passed or not. I studied (or thought about studying) basically every damn day for the past month or so. FREEDOM!!!

Congratulations on passing your exam first try!

Out of interest, what license was it?

I'm going to a nearby convention for work for most of this week. The convention itself isn't terribly interesting, but it has been nice to catch up with old friends and meet some new people.

Looking ahead, this is my first proper weekend off in over a year, so I'm looking around for a good destination for a weekend trip (something I'm told normal people do!). Any recommendations within a 4-5 hour drive from downtown Chicago?

Spent a couple days with my partner which was awesome but I'm coming down with a stomach bug so that's lame. Just learning Rust in bed.

pretty alright! finished my last exam yesterday, and will be needing to find a job for the summer between semesters, so i’ve been a bit stressed and nervous for needing to do that and just the future generally. i have one atm, but i don’t think i’ll be able to get as many hours as i’d like, and tuition isn’t going to pay itself 🙃

Congrats on making it through the exams and good luck for finding the summer job!